Venting How was your childhood ?

[numbed one]

M'y childhood was calme , with some adventure, and normal , what about you ?

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Childhood for me was a waking nightmare thanks to a malignant narcissist mother and a paedophile stepfather.
I would rather eat my own shit for the rest of my days than have to go through all that again.

 

[GlutenFreeCat]

Decent at times but went through some pretty bad abuse at the hands of my bio dad and his father. My step dad would occasionally lose his temper and beat me.

 

[R_N]

Alienation mostly. My first memories were war torn country and being ostracised for my mixed blood. I was considered a devil without being or acting like one.

But it helps me see what some can't now when they get lost in their groups and hate on each other like some primitive animals.

 

[numbed one]

Childhood for me was a waking nightmare thanks to a malignant narcissist mother and a paedophile stepfather.
I would rather eat my own shit for the rest of my days than have to go through all that again.

Decent at times but went through some pretty bad abuse at the hands of my bio dad and his father. My step dad would occasionally lose his temper and beat me.

I also had some catastrophic moments but thé thing IS i can't remember everything due to m'y loss of memory , because of m'y schizophrenia :/

 

[FuneralCry]

I still wished to cease existing back then. I hate how humans so selfishly decide to procreate, it's tragic how they decided to create suffering by forcing life here. It was better when I didn't exist as nobody can suffer from not existing after all.

 

[numbed one]

I still wished to cease existing back then. I hate how humans so selfishly decide to procreate, it's tragic how they decided to create suffering by forcing life here. It was better when I didn't exist as nobody can suffer from not existing after all.

I noticed that yr in thé forum for years now , i Can sée yr replies now and then , also i've noticed that y really hâte existing , i hâte it when schizophrénia Can handicap me in some moments of life , liké driving a car and getting a job and so on .

 

[Darkover]

my mum and dad got divorce when i was 2 i stayed living with my mum,my mom was neglectful she never took me to the dentis nor did my dad not once in my life by the time i was 19 my teeth started decaying, i skipped school from year 7 aged 11-12 all the way into the end of school mostly just played playstation and smoked cannabis everyday, we use to buy cheap cigarettes and sell them for 30p each at school a whole 20 pack cost like 3£, i enjoyed my childhood but little did i know i was wasting my life way from an early age taking drugs i also went on to develop schizophrenia at age 18, overall i was happy as a kid but i was stuipd and was easy to entertain with drugs and video games, i never did leave school with any qualifications.

 

[zombiegirl]

 

[lightnings]

Mine was a war starting from the mornings with the shoutings of my malignant narcissistics mother to go to school and being bullied too.
You could never truly enjoy things on your own without being labeled as useless.
So I define my childhood pure hell.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I had a pretty good childhood and very loving parents.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

Mine was a sad childhood. I was a lonely child, and ignored most of the time. It was like I had my mom and brother there but I felt disconnected from them. I'll bet many undiagnosed autistic children grow up like this if the family is a toxic one. It's a miracle I survived this long

 

[tiger b]

Awful.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

Sad. Grew up in a commie block, my parents would never show affection. I had my physical needs met but not emotional. Was forced to go to the church on Sunday. My mother would criticise me often and I had great trouble socialising with other kids. Horrible abusive post-soviet teachers at school. I liked to escape to my fantasy books.

 

[Unattainable666]

My childhood - my mother fucked me up for my entire life. Now it's too late for me

 

[Leavesfromthevine]

I would say I had a pretty common childhood for a poor person in the US.

One parent household with that parent heavily on drugs so mentally dead already. Finding ways to eat by going around the same drug dealers that were supplying my parent and helping them with their "hustle". The older I got the more risky and dumb things I would do to make money. Taking care of siblings because no one else would and they didn't understand how to survive in that life.

The main difference between me and most people is how anti social I was. Aside from when I was trying to eat I would never talk to anyone. It really stunted me going into adulthood. It also led me to never wanting to attempt any drugs or habits like alcohol or nicotine so I suppose I'm thankful for that. Going through life raw is definitely extremely difficult though so I have been curious if something would help it, I'd rather ctb than actually find out though.

 

[Kundalini Guy]

Shit

 

[F@#$]

In hindsight it was storybook. We lived on an acreage in Arizona, had dogs,horses,usually got what I wanted( had to work for it but I'm glad for that now), motorcycles, atvs,guns all kinds of cool shit. The worst part of my childhood was church! I hated it. Three times a week twice on Sunday. A bunch of cliques and snobs. Brainwashing and abusive bullshit. Had my mom convinced I was some sort of demon of some shit.

 

[Kit1]

Parents didn't want me. Abandoned at birth to some relatives who already had 6 kids and didn't have the time to look after me - so I was passed around and of course, the paedophiles stepped in. Abused throughout childhood. Birth family returned for me and had me foe about 5.5 years with mum from about 6 - beaten up, screamed at etc by her. Raped by the men. Ran away from home as a teenager (best decision I made and I was somewhat safe). Survived all this crap and made some half decent life, got a decent job, fell in love (not great), had the two best kids that any mother could ever wish for and living for them. But I am autistic, CPTSD etc.., NHS let me down with accessibility challenges and I stopped engaging with GP, stopped taking all my meds more than 3 months ago. After all that hard work and still trying to keep myself alive, right now I am just wondering whether I will be alive till the morning, till the next week etc. Damned childhood. Sorry to offload - but right now I just wish I could die, not be here and trying to stay alive and struggling to keep myself safe. For all I know, this might be my last communication in this lifetime - though I hope not.

 

[Gonnerr]

Good money wise, never was hungry, i was doing great trips and having great gifts.

But mentally, my parents were not ready and should have made the good decision to leave me safe in the void.

 

[Orange Cat]

My childhood was a nightmare. My family abused me and my brother.