I know this isn't the first thread on this exact topic but I am somewhat facing resistance because I have some fear in no longer being able to experience and no longer having thoughts, awareness, consciousness. In prior threads on this topic, users have said this may be a sign that you aren't ready to go, and to an extent, perhaps this is true for me. My reasons for wanting to leave are because I believe the future holds nothing for me due to excessive criminal prosecutions I faced for "crimes" I committed in high school. I know I can never amount to anything given my past. I'll never live the life I wanted. How can I take control back and overcome this fear?
Alright mate, I'm sorry to read about how you're feeling. My prayers and

are with you. As someone who's been where you are right now, I can only say this; Forgiveness is the key. I found self-forgiveness the hardest and at times, I still struggle with it, but forgiveness for others' sins was tough too. I felt that had they not sinned against me, I, in turn would not have sinned also. After two and a half years of hell, which is slowly coming to an end, I found faith. Jesus gave me the ability to leave those sins at the foot of the cross - It felt amazing! Liberating! - Saying it out loud, in my head and in my heart, I truly forgive you- incredible feeling! In order to forgive myself, or at least, to start trying to, I had forgive others. I'm on the road to learning to understand what happened, why it happened and how to accept it, deal with it and live as close to contentment as I can. That's a very big battle to win, but if I try, at least when I do go, I can say, I tried. I wish you peace and happiness.