Bootleg Astolfo
Glorious Bean Plushie
- Oct 12, 2020
- 1,209
I've noticed that like, if something scares me, it becomes *EXTREMELY* hard for me to resist engaging in it, in fact, it makes me ''want'' it. Things that will make my social phobia go fucking nuts guaranteed ends up in a panic attack ? I'm literally incapable of saying no to stupid shit like selling my gay bags at large events, despite it being a literal nightmare for me. Spiders ? I'm incapable of not immediatly going to stare at them, i constantly capture some in small jars to just, look at them. Childhood friend i always liked but never found attractive ? The second she gave me a proper genuine ''im going to kill you'' smile whilst holding a knife, NOW SHE'S CUTE. Most of the things i end up obsessing over have a fear aspect; Hatsune Miku ? Was introduced to me by someone who genuinly scares the shit out of me, and i still somewhat associate it with her. The best anime on earth, spice and wolf ? Holo talks about how she could just murder the shit out of people, and kinda just easily could wipe out an entire army as a big fluffy wolf. Foxes, my favourtie animal ? Hard to explain in text, but also associated with scary shit. My old ass antique firearms ? The thought of them potentially exploding in my face kentucky ballistic style has me taking them to the range immediatly.
Aniways, in short, am i constantly getting myself into situation that torture me, because im basically a weird ass variant of a masochist lol. Like, the fact that something is a nightmare scenario is why im incapable of saying no. SEE, IT WAS BARELY DEGENERATE, ONLY THE BARE MINIMUM TO MAKE MY POINT, IM NORMAL I SWE-
Aniways, in short, am i constantly getting myself into situation that torture me, because im basically a weird ass variant of a masochist lol. Like, the fact that something is a nightmare scenario is why im incapable of saying no. SEE, IT WAS BARELY DEGENERATE, ONLY THE BARE MINIMUM TO MAKE MY POINT, IM NORMAL I SWE-
