BirdWithoutWings
In my next life I hope to be a bird.
- Jul 7, 2024
- 24
I think I've somewhat got something functional going (I've weight tested this, good to go!) Going to add some more pillows and blankets down there so when I doze off from the Klonopin I can just "fall asleep" in this abomination. If the hanging doesn't take me, the bag should eventually.
Now I'm just frantically boxing up all of my belongings and adding notes to them so getting rid of my belongings will be much easier. I've thankfully boxed all of my art supplies, as well as put one aside for my ex with my pc and the few gifts he got me.
Going to leave a note on my bedroom door for first responders (or whoever shows up first.) I'm unsure exactly which day I'll go through with it, but the plan is to schedule emails to send to a few people a day or two after hanging myself to ensure that I'm DEAD dead if somebody were to call. I'm likely just going to record a couple videos, send those, and call it a day. It'll hopefully allow my body to be discoverd before the decomp gets too bad+I haven't been able to rehome my cats yet so I'd need somebody to come in asap to take my cats so they don't die from starvation (Though I have considered leaving my bedroom door slightly open incase my cats get desperate and need something to eat. I'm assuming they can eat me without any issues.)
I know that a hangmans knot doesn't tend to be recommended for partial hangings, but it just seems so much more stable than the alternative haha. Worst case scenario I just struggle and either stop and choose another method/day or I just suffocate from the bag.
From what I gathered so far, you can just put your head in, kneal down, put as much pressure as possible on your throat via leaning forward, and you're good to go? I've watched quite a few videos of hangings and they all seemed to go by relatively quickly, so realistically how long would I have to endure any discomfort from the act? It seemed like past the 2 min mark mark was when I'd start seeing some signs of posturing, so I'm assuming that under a minute is all that it would take before I'm unaware? Regardless, I'll update you guys. If I get everything done that I want to in time, I'll try to figure out a way to record it or stream it when the time comes so anybody else who's curious will at least have more resources to look at before deciding.
Now I'm just frantically boxing up all of my belongings and adding notes to them so getting rid of my belongings will be much easier. I've thankfully boxed all of my art supplies, as well as put one aside for my ex with my pc and the few gifts he got me.
Going to leave a note on my bedroom door for first responders (or whoever shows up first.) I'm unsure exactly which day I'll go through with it, but the plan is to schedule emails to send to a few people a day or two after hanging myself to ensure that I'm DEAD dead if somebody were to call. I'm likely just going to record a couple videos, send those, and call it a day. It'll hopefully allow my body to be discoverd before the decomp gets too bad+I haven't been able to rehome my cats yet so I'd need somebody to come in asap to take my cats so they don't die from starvation (Though I have considered leaving my bedroom door slightly open incase my cats get desperate and need something to eat. I'm assuming they can eat me without any issues.)
I know that a hangmans knot doesn't tend to be recommended for partial hangings, but it just seems so much more stable than the alternative haha. Worst case scenario I just struggle and either stop and choose another method/day or I just suffocate from the bag.
From what I gathered so far, you can just put your head in, kneal down, put as much pressure as possible on your throat via leaning forward, and you're good to go? I've watched quite a few videos of hangings and they all seemed to go by relatively quickly, so realistically how long would I have to endure any discomfort from the act? It seemed like past the 2 min mark mark was when I'd start seeing some signs of posturing, so I'm assuming that under a minute is all that it would take before I'm unaware? Regardless, I'll update you guys. If I get everything done that I want to in time, I'll try to figure out a way to record it or stream it when the time comes so anybody else who's curious will at least have more resources to look at before deciding.
Trying, but I'm still at the clinic until tomorrow, and their network doesn't allow this site.
There's a lot of prep for me to do and more research before I can be sure.
It seems partial suspension seems less reliable from some posts I've seen, so I have to consider my options.
I bought this rope. It's a 10mm polyester rope. It seems fairly stiff. Is that normal for polyester ropes? I'm unable to leave my home due to a disability so I can't really compare it to other ropes.
Also what is a good lubricant to help it slide better? I've read this whole thread a couple times and I think it was mentioned but now I forget
Thanks
Also what is a good lubricant to help it slide better? I've read this whole thread a couple times and I think it was mentioned but now I forget
Thanks
I was happy the past few days learning about the SN method through this website. Happiness broke when I found out it's so hard to get SN, found websites from Canada but they reject residential ordering… So I guess its back to partial hanging. My brother has a punching bag so I'm think of using the stance to tie a rope to hang myself.
I'm planing on drinking a bottle of nyquil and getting drunk before hanging. Is there a downside to drinking a whole bottle of NyQuil plus getting drunk?
I'm planing on drinking a bottle of nyquil and getting drunk before hanging. Is there a downside to drinking a whole bottle of NyQuil plus getting drunk?
Evelyn Lane
banned
- Aug 2, 2024
- 330
Yes, you shouldn't get drunk before hanging yourself. Hanging needs your full attention; you could easily end up screwing something up by getting drunk.
holdmyhand
ignorance is bliss
- May 13, 2024
- 11
To answer your question it just took a hell lot of thinking. I was originally thinking about the doorknob method with full suspension but I wasn't sure if that would work with my shitty door handles. Since I was so set on using my door as an anchor point since there are no other available ones in my home, I figured I'd need something to be able to tie my rope to so it won't slip through the door frame, so that's how I came up with that idea.
However…I've realised the flaw with my original plan. Since I would be using a static rope that means it would be pretty stiff. The problem with that is that I don't think the door would be able pinch the rope and close. I definitely can't use a softer, semi static or dynamic rope as a solution because then my feet would surely touch the floor as the noose drops, and I'm not aiming for partial.
So I was thinking, could I use a bedsheet instead? One that doesn't stretch. I'd just be tying a secure stopper knot on the other side of the door instead. I'm not too sure about this honestly because I've heard it delays the time to reach unconsciousness and it may not compress the carotids enough.
My only other option would be to muster up the courage and to do it outside with the rope. Find a suitable wooded area. Problem with this though is that I'm not able to do it at night when it's dark and quiet outside. (For some context I live with my very paranoid father, it's quite impossible for me to sneak out of my apartment without alerting him and making him suspicious of me due to my past history of attempts.) So if I do this it'll have to be around 9am after he leaves for work. I live in a busy area so all I can do is just pray I don't get found too early. I hope me carrying a stepstool in public won't seem too suspicious..
Sorry for dumping this out on here I suppose. Any thoughts..? I really could use some opinions.
Evelyn Lane
banned
- Aug 2, 2024
- 330
Couldn't you use other doors in the house? Also, you think the door(s) won't be able to pinch the rope and close, but do you know that for sure?
You're right in thinking that with a bedsheet it would take you longer to reach unconsciousness.
I have a similar situation where I live with people that wouldn't like it if I sneak out at night. My idea is just to do it anyway, just sort of YOLO it when I've fully decided it's time to die.
Doing this during day time might be risky... you don't wanna risk brain damage.
So yeah, if I were you (and I am in a similar situation) I would scout out your surroundings for a suitable spot to hang myself, make sure I got everything in order, and then just sneak out and do it at night.
It shouldn't matter if your dad gets upset, since you won't see him again. Researching and planning things well will make you feel less anxious about it.
Or wait, I just remembered: if it is literally impossible for you to exit the house at night, do it during the day. Hide somewhere outside. And at night you can carry out your plan.
I mean, that's how I will do it when my time comes. It's all very drastic, but if you do this when you're prepared, you can succeed. Give it some time, there's no rush. Plan things thoroughly.
I wish you all the best
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holdmyhand
ignorance is bliss
- May 13, 2024
- 11
Well I haven't brought the rope yet to test the theory out but I'm pretty sure about this. The doors in my house have barely even have a gap between the top of them and the door frame (??hope I explained it correctly??) so I really doubt a static rope would be able to fit through. I would buy one now just to make sure of this but I wouldn't want my dad to find it, he already knows I'm suicidal and even snoops through my belongings sometimes. I'll buy it on the week of my attempt and try to keep it well hidden until then.
Well for now, I've decided to put full suspension aside and switch to partial instead.
I couldn't get fully comfortable with doing it outside and I wanted to be able to do something I was able to practice instead so I could get it completely right when the time comes. Been using a little scarf tied onto a heavy duty coat hanger. It's been going surprisingly, VERY well. I just put my head through the noose I've made, using 2 small socks around the front of my neck as padding, pre tighten the noose and start to hyperventilate for a short while. I keep my head straight against the door and I hold my breath and start to shift down as much as I can before the rope stops me from going further whilst I extend my legs forward, with only the back of my heel touching the ground. I've found this to be completely painless (for me atleast), and I've been able to get up (barely) before going unconscious. I love the feeling after.
Either way thanks for the advice you've given me before.
Hi,
My initial method was going to be suffocation by helium, but several factors played a part: I was drunk and high, distraught, and it wasn't sealed in. That's what I know for sure, I also suspect there wasn't enough for my body size, but that might have been moot if I could have created a perfect seal.
My follow-up to that was to drown myself, but my survival instinct kicked in during the process of drowning. Drowning was horrible, and I wouldn't recommend it.
My anchor point has hit a snag with the rope I bought, but I have a kink rope that I tested it with that fits, I just need to make sure I understand if this rope is appropriate and would be effective. Otherwise I have a limited time to find a different anchor point.
Hello all. Which do you think would be the best rope to use out of these 4?
https://amazon.com/dp/B01MZYDYR0
https://amazon.com/dp/B0BR4ZXV3L
https://amazon.com/dp/B075VDWKL4
https://amazon.com/dp/B0BL6LX2DN
Thank you so much to anyone who answers.
https://amazon.com/dp/B01MZYDYR0
https://amazon.com/dp/B0BR4ZXV3L
https://amazon.com/dp/B075VDWKL4
https://amazon.com/dp/B0BL6LX2DN
Thank you so much to anyone who answers.
Worndown
Illuminated
- Mar 21, 2019
- 3,101
You think I should go with the 3rd one then? What would you recommend? Thank you lots for answering
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Worndown
Illuminated
- Mar 21, 2019
- 3,101
Okay, today might be my ctb day.
I read a lot (my brain is almost killing me).
From what I could gather I plan to do :
- a partial hanging
- facing the rope like here https://www.documentingreality.com/forum/f249/curious-case-lyle-stevik-168551/ in order not to obstruct my breathing
- I plan to use my door with my ratchet rope like on the pictures below
What do you think ?
From some advice, I switched from night-night to partial hanging, and I thought I could use some objects (two scarves rolled) to add pressure to the side of the arteries.
Finally, I'm afraid to test, because I don't know how, and i am also afraid to ctb beforehand.
I read a lot (my brain is almost killing me).
From what I could gather I plan to do :
- a partial hanging
- facing the rope like here https://www.documentingreality.com/forum/f249/curious-case-lyle-stevik-168551/ in order not to obstruct my breathing
- I plan to use my door with my ratchet rope like on the pictures below
What do you think ?
From some advice, I switched from night-night to partial hanging, and I thought I could use some objects (two scarves rolled) to add pressure to the side of the arteries.
Finally, I'm afraid to test, because I don't know how, and i am also afraid to ctb beforehand.
HopingOnaMiracle
Specialist
- Mar 8, 2024
- 304
When you do partial hanging isn't it very easy to get your head out of it. Survival instinct. I really don't get how that will work reading the op
Well, the thing is, you lose consciousness, and there is also this video posted by an old member, very interesting !
It demonstrates that, after your brain was cut from either blood coming in or blood coming out, you lose consciousness, and then just fall, SO, is the thing was around your neck, you will go back to your death.
Attempted partial a few times the last couple days in a kneeling position (position 4 from the OG post) but backed off as I started to get that lightheaded feeling but was excited that there was progress as I couldn't successfully compress carotids before. I wasn't confident enough that the kneeling position would apply enough pressure for the next 30 minutes or so, might raise the ligature a bit higher.
HopingOnaMiracle
Specialist
- Mar 8, 2024
- 304
The OP says you lose consciousness in seconds but I heard from a survivor they did fight the full suspension. What exactly happens once you tighten the slipknot ...
I might try partial because I'm afraid the support will break. How long do you suffer before you knock out...?
I might try partial because I'm afraid the support will break. How long do you suffer before you knock out...?
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Look at this one here : https://www.documentingreality.com/forum/f249/curious-case-lyle-stevik-168551/
looks efficient
HopingOnaMiracle
Specialist
- Mar 8, 2024
- 304
I've been testing with a rope, putting it just below my jawline, with the knot just behind my neck and I felt very dizzy, like when you suddenly stand up and your vision gets blurry. It didn't feel painful either, but it is uncomfortable
Been doing lots of testing, its like choaking game but you want to "do it wrong" and die ;) It actually killed few kids that were just doing "tik tok" black out challenge.
As its mentioned, if you feel that your head is filling with blood, or compress the wind pipe, you doing it wrong. If you compress ca you should start fainting VERY quickly, then body weight will make you push even more, if done right seems like a "turn off" switch to me, definitely going with this one.
As its mentioned, if you feel that your head is filling with blood, or compress the wind pipe, you doing it wrong. If you compress ca you should start fainting VERY quickly, then body weight will make you push even more, if done right seems like a "turn off" switch to me, definitely going with this one.
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