Help How to deal with SI

[aeoliandawn]

Hello there, I'm not completely sure which method I'll try next. I've tried partial hanging for about 5 times and lost count of how many times I tried strangling myself (more specifically, pressing the baroreceptors to make me faint)
My main problem is SI, I somehow get scared and stop the whole process.
Is there anyway to numb the brain just enough for SI to not kick in? I could research more on my own, but I highly doubt information about this kind of stuff is easily sharable like this. But, I am majoring in pharmaceutical sciences (idk what's the actual name in english) so maybe I could find something useful, I'll share if I find something interesting.

I hate that my brain keeps telling me to end my life but when I actually try it makes me stop it, doesn't make sense at all.
Any help will be useful guys!

 

[Passenger4224]

It's hard to answer. I've seen this question before and asked it myself, but not many people have been able to give answers. The people that know the answer aren't here to tell us :/

From reading others' posts and threads, triggering anger and impulsivity is a possible way to fight it. But I have a feeling the answer is different depending on the person.

Hopefully this post gets more responses!