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tiredofbreathing

tiredofbreathing

Member
Jan 3, 2023
82
I was severely abused by various narcissistics my whole life. Obviously when I kms they will be happy or "win". How can I stop caring and feeling anger about that?
I have a chronic condition so please don't tell me to not do it so they won't win. Im waiting another month or so but I don't really have a choice most likely
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
4,745
My Nfamily will be happy when I'm gone since I am the only one who knows their putrid secrets. The only thing that matters to them is hiding their cruel ways.

I don't know how to be truly at peace with it. Even when I look out at the world of politics and so on, I see similar Npeople 'winning' at the expense of all other life forms, with the familiar smug smile of not even being troubled by a moment of remorse. To accept the status quo is to plunge into despair, yet to fight it is to be set up to fail. I never found a true way out of this dilemma.

Hopefully it is a small consolation to know that you're not the only one dealing with this.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,308
I think the only thing that comforts me is that I believe in death- we'll be free of all of it. We won't have to think about or witness the smug repurcussions.

Sometimes I wonder if this world will one day be only be made up of Narcissists and Socio/Psychopaths- seeing as they are likely the only ones who will be able to survive in it. A part of me feels smug imagining them battling it out between themselves at that point. Regardless- I want to be out of it- by whatever means necessary. Let them all consume one another.

I initially became suicidal aged 10 in direct response to being with someone I'm sure was/is a narcissist. If I had gone then- it would have been due to that. In terms of them feeling like they had 'won'- maybe they would have- there's no way they would have felt remorse. I very much doubt people like that are capable of it.

Still- I had friends and people around then who knew the situation. Even if I go now- 33 years later- some will know where these feeling first originated. There is some comfort in that for me. I wonder if you can find any comfort in that? Granted- you're unlikely to change the narcissist in question and their 'flying monkeys' (supporters.) Still- are there not other people out there who know the truth for you?

I'm so sorry for your situation though. Those years were by far- the worst of my life so far.
 
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tiredofbreathing

Member
Jan 3, 2023
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I think the only thing that comforts me is that I believe in death- we'll be free of all of it. We won't have to think about or witness the smug repurcussions.

Sometimes I wonder if this world will one day be only be made up of Narcissists and Socio/Psychopaths- seeing as they are likely the only ones who will be able to survive in it. A part of me feels smug imagining them battling it out between themselves at that point. Regardless- I want to be out of it- by whatever means necessary. Let them all consume one another.

I initially became suicidal aged 10 in direct response to being with someone I'm sure was/is a narcissist. If I had gone then- it would have been due to that. In terms of them feeling like they had 'won'- maybe they would have- there's no way they would have felt remorse. I very much doubt people like that are capable of it.

Still- I had friends and people around then who knew the situation. Even if I go now- 33 years later- some will know where these feeling first originated. There is some comfort in that for me. I wonder if you can find any comfort in that? Granted- you're unlikely to change the narcissist in question and their 'flying monkeys' (supporters.) Still- are there not other people out there who know the truth for you?

I'm so sorry for your situation though. Those years were by far- the worst of my life so far.
unfortunately not really. I dont have many friends and my family are narcs also
 
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Goodgirlryeo101

Wizard
May 27, 2023
661
Win at what exactly? Even if they think they win it will be just in their delusional mind…. You shouldn't even be concerned about them, your goal is eternal peace… The only people who have won in life in my humble opinion are those millionaire or those beautiful people like Beyonce and Angelina Jolie because they are beautiful asf and rich as well. What would someone who used to beg me for money win for ?? ( well I'm talking in my own case here) They aren't rich or good looking for me to be envious of them or think that they win. I just don't want to deal with their bs anymore since their job is to monitor and stalk me (oh the irony yeah the winners indeed). In my case they were still even asking us to meet for tea ( I would rather slit my throat than meet up with them).

Even if they are happy when you catch your bus you will be at eternal peace. I hope all goes for you.
 
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ghost44

Student
Apr 14, 2023
103
I don't think it's possible. Quoting someone on here "Let the assholes fight it out".
 
OceanBlue

OceanBlue

Feminist
Jun 13, 2021
701
I think it might help to remember what life does to people, your enemies will age and suffer. Staying alive is not a win for them.
 
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