bl33ding_heart
Borderline
- Jun 24, 2025
- 805
My ocd is making my life so difficult. Usually my posts are about my bpd, but my ocd has been severely affecting my life recently. So I'm talking about it here for once. My intrusive thoughts keep on convincing me I'm a horrible person. They keep on telling me that I'm selfish, and narcissistic, and I don't care about others. I don't think any of that is true, at least as far as I'm aware. But no matter what I and anyone around me objectively knows about me these thoughts pervade. And it hurts so much. I care about being a good person a lot, I don't wanna be a poison to the people around me. I'm scared of hurting others because I delude myself into thinking these thoughts are real. Even if I logically know that I have ocd and it's my mental illness causing this, not actual rationality. These thoughts won't stop torturing me.
