Venting how to be okay with loneliness

[HowlingCoyote]

i feel like i always need someone in my life. i fill my time with partners, friends, situationships, fwbs, fuckbuddies, just to feel something. i need someone. i cant be alone, being alone makes me feel like i'm not worth anything, like i don't have a purpose. i want to be okay with being alone but i just cant. i cant be alone. when people inevitably leave me it feels like drowning until i find the next person to occupy my time. it makes me feel bad, like im using these people, but i cant help it. the feelings feel real but maybe its just my brain tricking me.