Discussion How old are you and how long have you been depressed or suicidal?

[LetMeOut67]

I'm 57 and I've been permanently depressed more or less since the last term of school 83-84

 

[gottacheckout]

I'm 61, for a few more weeks. I've been depressed forever, didn't realize it until later if course. I've been suicidal since I was 10 or so with a few breaks where I could relax. I'm in one of those non suicidal times now for the last month, longest in a long time, and am enjoying it.

 

[Doll Steak]

I'm 61, for a few more weeks. I've been depressed forever, didn't realize it until later if course. I've been suicidal since I was 10 or so with a few breaks where I could relax. I'm in one of those non suicidal times now for the last month, longest in a long time, and am enjoying it.

wow, sometimes I'm surprised people that age would be on here, maybe that's just cause I'm way younger.

It's cool that your able to enjoy things right now, I also have those little breaks in the storm, but they only last for maybe a week or two at most.

If I could ask, what age would you say was your favorite, or at least was the most tolerable?

 

[gottacheckout]

wow, sometimes I'm surprised people that age would be on here, maybe that's just cause I'm way younger though.

It's cool that your able to enjoy things right now, I also have those little breaks in the storm, but they only last for maybe a week or two at most.

If I could ask, what age would you say was your favorite, or at least was the most tolerable?

Geee, thanks (I think). I'd have to say that my 40's were the easiest. The most difficult were the teens and twenties. That is why I just cringe when people so young ctb. I'm not here to talk anyone out of it but I do try to keep others to from doing anything dumb that will make their situation worse.

My secret to survival was having pets to live for, didn't get to have kids.

 

[derekWest]

Depressed for ever (or just anhedonia) ? I manage to enjoy life a little for sometimes.
Big suicidal thought since 2022 (mainly during winter) and also suicidal behavior since October 2024. But I stop the last since my CTb attempt in mid March 2025.

 

[Dejected 55]

wow, sometimes I'm surprised people that age would be on here, maybe that's just cause I'm way younger.

I'm 55 and when I first came on this site I thought there would be more older people here. I was a little surprised, and sad, to see so many much younger people.

I don't invalidate anyone's feelings... and I was depressed when I was younger too... I just never was suicidal until I got older and everything was still the same or worse. I gave life a fair shot for a long time before I realized I should have packed it in a long time ago... BUT I couldn't have known for sure when I was young.

I wish our society wasn't discouraging anyone... but I really wish it wasn't discouraging young people who haven't really had a chance to start yet.

 

[usernamesarehard]

22
depressed since I was 15 or 16
suicidal since I was 16 or 17

 

[5_5]

im 19. i started feeling stuck at 16

 

[Redacted24]

Pushing 60
First got serious at 16. Had a method and plan, but was stopped by a muffin

Been on and off suicidal several times since then
It's been bad these last 7 years. Excruciatingly bad, mainly emotional abuse

 

[Doll Steak]

I'm 55 and when I first came on this site I thought there would be more older people here. I was a little surprised, and sad, to see so many much younger people.

I don't invalidate anyone's feelings... and I was depressed when I was younger too... I just never was suicidal until I got older and everything was still the same or worse. I gave life a fair shot for a long time before I realized I should have packed it in a long time ago... BUT I couldn't have known for sure when I was young.

I wish our society wasn't discouraging anyone... but I really wish it wasn't discouraging young people who haven't really had a chance to start yet.

I understand that. Personally I've just never had the desire to grow old, it always seemed so mundane. Ever since I was a little kid I'd look around at my older peers and think, "that's it?"

But then again, like you said, I can't know for sure and honestly with how my life is and the ambitions I have I could probably hang on for years and years and be at least semi okay, I just simply have no interest in that as it currently stands.

 

[Grog]

I'm thirty. I started to feel depressed at around eleven years old. Two years prior is when my oldest brother's heroin addiction started, and that started a chain reaction of awful, traumatic events.
At around seventeen is when I started to contemplate suicide. Ever since, I've struggled with suicidal ideation. But lately, I feel really good and that things are maybe turning around~

 

[PI3.14]

27, anxiety since 6 due to sexual harassment but depressed since 19 and suicidal since 22

 

[orcapythia]

I'm 20, depressed since I was 11 or 12 and suicidal since 13

 

[hiAbbey]

Pushing 60
First got serious at 16. Had a method and plan, but was stopped by a muffin

Been on and off suicidal several times since then
It's been bad these last 7 years. Excruciatingly bad, mainly emotional abuse

me too, last seven years exactly.

 

[spero_meliora]

Fuck it, I'll contribute.
41, depressed for as long as I can remember, suicidal since 16, with attempts at 17(more like a cry for help), 20, 27 (heh) and 32. Still on the fence of staying or going.

It also deeply saddens me how young some are here - hate to see it, even if I understand.