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LetMeOut67

LetMeOut67

Student
May 7, 2025
187
I'm 57 and I've been permanently depressed more or less since the last term of school 83-84
 
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gottacheckout

gottacheckout

Specialist
May 20, 2025
359
I'm 61, for a few more weeks. I've been depressed forever, didn't realize it until later if course. I've been suicidal since I was 10 or so with a few breaks where I could relax. I'm in one of those non suicidal times now for the last month, longest in a long time, and am enjoying it.
 
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Doll Steak

Doll Steak

Student
May 31, 2025
129
I'm 61, for a few more weeks. I've been depressed forever, didn't realize it until later if course. I've been suicidal since I was 10 or so with a few breaks where I could relax. I'm in one of those non suicidal times now for the last month, longest in a long time, and am enjoying it.
wow, sometimes I'm surprised people that age would be on here, maybe that's just cause I'm way younger.

It's cool that your able to enjoy things right now, I also have those little breaks in the storm, but they only last for maybe a week or two at most.

If I could ask, what age would you say was your favorite, or at least was the most tolerable?
 
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gottacheckout

gottacheckout

Specialist
May 20, 2025
359
wow, sometimes I'm surprised people that age would be on here, maybe that's just cause I'm way younger though.

It's cool that your able to enjoy things right now, I also have those little breaks in the storm, but they only last for maybe a week or two at most.

If I could ask, what age would you say was your favorite, or at least was the most tolerable?
Geee, thanks (I think). I'd have to say that my 40's were the easiest. The most difficult were the teens and twenties. That is why I just cringe when people so young ctb. I'm not here to talk anyone out of it but I do try to keep others to from doing anything dumb that will make their situation worse.

My secret to survival was having pets to live for, didn't get to have kids.
 
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derekWest

Experienced
Feb 1, 2025
221
Depressed for ever (or just anhedonia) ? I manage to enjoy life a little for sometimes.
Big suicidal thought since 2022 (mainly during winter) and also suicidal behavior since October 2024. But I stop the last since my CTb attempt in mid March 2025.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Arcanist
May 7, 2025
470
wow, sometimes I'm surprised people that age would be on here, maybe that's just cause I'm way younger.
I'm 55 and when I first came on this site I thought there would be more older people here. I was a little surprised, and sad, to see so many much younger people.

I don't invalidate anyone's feelings... and I was depressed when I was younger too... I just never was suicidal until I got older and everything was still the same or worse. I gave life a fair shot for a long time before I realized I should have packed it in a long time ago... BUT I couldn't have known for sure when I was young.

I wish our society wasn't discouraging anyone... but I really wish it wasn't discouraging young people who haven't really had a chance to start yet.
 
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usernamesarehard

usernamesarehard

Life sucks and then you die
Dec 22, 2021
170
22
depressed since I was 15 or 16
suicidal since I was 16 or 17
 
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Redacted24

Might be Richard Cory... or not
Nov 20, 2023
476
Pushing 60
First got serious at 16. Had a method and plan, but was stopped by a muffin

Been on and off suicidal several times since then
It's been bad these last 7 years. Excruciatingly bad, mainly emotional abuse
 
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Doll Steak

Doll Steak

Student
May 31, 2025
129
I'm 55 and when I first came on this site I thought there would be more older people here. I was a little surprised, and sad, to see so many much younger people.

I don't invalidate anyone's feelings... and I was depressed when I was younger too... I just never was suicidal until I got older and everything was still the same or worse. I gave life a fair shot for a long time before I realized I should have packed it in a long time ago... BUT I couldn't have known for sure when I was young.

I wish our society wasn't discouraging anyone... but I really wish it wasn't discouraging young people who haven't really had a chance to start yet.

I understand that. Personally I've just never had the desire to grow old, it always seemed so mundane. Ever since I was a little kid I'd look around at my older peers and think, "that's it?"

But then again, like you said, I can't know for sure and honestly with how my life is and the ambitions I have I could probably hang on for years and years and be at least semi okay, I just simply have no interest in that as it currently stands.
 
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Grog

Grog

Be good to yourself.
Jun 3, 2025
203
I'm thirty. I started to feel depressed at around eleven years old. Two years prior is when my oldest brother's heroin addiction started, and that started a chain reaction of awful, traumatic events.
At around seventeen is when I started to contemplate suicide. Ever since, I've struggled with suicidal ideation. But lately, I feel really good and that things are maybe turning around~
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

Looking for a way out
Oct 4, 2024
124
27, anxiety since 6 due to sexual harassment but depressed since 19 and suicidal since 22
 
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orcapythia

orcapythia

I start over with a dead variable
May 16, 2025
15
I'm 20, depressed since I was 11 or 12 and suicidal since 13
 
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hiAbbey

hiAbbey

All’s well that ends pretty prettyy prettyyy soon
Sep 30, 2021
46
Pushing 60
First got serious at 16. Had a method and plan, but was stopped by a muffin

Been on and off suicidal several times since then
It's been bad these last 7 years. Excruciatingly bad, mainly emotional abuse
me too, last seven years exactly.
 
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spero_meliora

spero_meliora

In hope for better things.
Jan 13, 2025
201
Fuck it, I'll contribute.
41, depressed for as long as I can remember, suicidal since 16, with attempts at 17(more like a cry for help), 20, 27 (heh) and 32. Still on the fence of staying or going.

It also deeply saddens me how young some are here - hate to see it, even if I understand.
 
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