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TitianCashew26

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May 8, 2025
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Just turned 27. Depressed since 19 or so. Suicidal for about six months but in the back of my mind I was worried I get to that point for a long time
What were things like before you were 19?
 
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MissBlack000

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Sep 30, 2024
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I'm 31, first ideation was when i was around 8, with ups and downs since then, but i've never seen real good times and goes worse with time. In retrospect, it's a very long and heartbreaking way. Being suicidal for long times it isn't life.
Yes I am in my mid 40s and my first ideations began at 8. I am medicated. Which keeps me largely from having ideations except around ovulation and pre-menstrual they come up too. I am very introverted and spend most of my time with my pets. Interacting with others feels too risky because I don't want to feel hurt or disappointed with people or life and get triggered into ideations. I feel I have been guilted into living in a way by family and the responsibility to my loved ones. I believe at some point in the future or once I am completely old, decrepit, & hopeless I may eventually take my life. I just hope to find a way that no one will notice that it was my doing so the ones I love will be able to avoid suffering more. It seems inevitable at some point in the distant future. I feel my depression is a slow suicide in a way because the things that come along with it effect your physical health and your behaviors and habits lead to a shorter life without you really being able to control it. I enjoy napping too much.
i'm 32 depressed since forever turned into existential nihilism and now waiting to die or to ctb when my body starts shitting out for real
I totally understand the existential nihilism.
 
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Rainking

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May 6, 2024
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51. As long as I can remember. Growing up, I had extreme social anxiety before it was really recognized as a thing so I was just completely lost and confused for most of my childhood. I think the earliest that the thought of suicide crossed my mind was 12ish. The deep depression really hit in my early 20's so I guess around 30 years of depression.
 
CutToRelease

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Dec 31, 2024
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I'm 20 from California idk when it started further back I remember the more instance of intentional self harming behavior I remember. So yeah I just have felt like this for as long as I can remember.
 
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Dejected 55

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May 7, 2025
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I turned 55 last month. I've been on and off depressed for most of my life, going back to childhood. I never used to be suicidal, though. I sometimes would feel like I understood how bad people who were must have felt, because I often felt really bad and wondered what was the point... but I never considered suicide until last year. Several things fell into place that just seem like the final nails in my coffin and I don't see any choice or any reason anymore to be here.
 

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