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saringceiling

saringceiling

Complaining is not enough anymore
Mar 13, 2023
25
Heyo tomoki, I am 21 and I think that I am depressed since I was 12, I got a diagnose way later because my parents thought therapy is for humans that look for excuses. Unfortunatly that meant a lot of coping and not understanding why stuff is how it is, which left physical and mental scars. How about you?
 
tomoki

tomoki

Member
Mar 8, 2023
48
Heyo tomoki, I am 21 and I think that I am depressed since I was 12, I got a diagnose way later because my parents thought therapy is for humans that look for excuses. Unfortunatly that meant a lot of coping and not understanding why stuff is how it is, which left physical and mental scars. How about you?
I am 22 years old and I have been depressed for 16 years. I have been treated very poorly by the doctor and I too, my parents do not seem to consider it a real illness.
Thank you very much for your answer
Do you have a treatment now?
 
saringceiling

saringceiling

Complaining is not enough anymore
Mar 13, 2023
25
I am 22 years old and I have been depressed for 16 years. I have been treated very poorly by the doctor and I too, my parents do not seem to consider it a real illness.
Thank you very much for your answer
Do you have a treatment now?
i'm devestated hearing that. I'm sorry that you had to go through that, that's absolute sh*t. To be honest I am currently not in treatment. Due to the waiting-lists in Germany I am waiting for a specialist since 2 years or something and the private doc's are super expensive. /: How did you fare with your doctor? I hope you are as far away from them as possible!!
 
tomoki

tomoki

Member
Mar 8, 2023
48
i'm devestated hearing that. I'm sorry that you had to go through that, that's absolute sh*t. To be honest I am currently not in treatment. Due to the waiting-lists in Germany I am waiting for a specialist since 2 years or something and the private doc's are super expensive. /: How did you fare with your doctor? I hope you are as far away from them as possible!!
actualy I don't see a doctor anymore and in my country and the delay to be taken in charge is very long. Now I don't have any treatment and I have to wait at least two months before hoping to get a new prescription.
(ps I love Germany there are so many beautiful landscapes and very good food :)) )
 
tomoki

tomoki

Member
Mar 8, 2023
48
Hey there, I am 20 years old and I have been depressed since I was around 11, there is a theory that it might be a genetic issue
Hello and thank you for your answer, I read that somewhere too
I must have a rotten genetics, the natural selection for me Darwin is right. to kill myself would be a good thing for the humanity so that I don't repent my rotten genes in the human genetic heritage.
 
Flores de Abril

Flores de Abril

Member
Mar 8, 2023
27
Maybe yes, maybe no.
But even if you and I have those bad genes it doesn't mean it is all over for us, but that or path will be way more rocky than for other people. I believe that even with depression we can learn to live with it and enjoy as much of the little (and even big) things we find and make in the way
 
Toy

Toy

Let me out.
Mar 12, 2023
93
i'm almost 20 and have been suicidal for around 11 years now. doctors in my area don't take me very seriously unfortunately and since i'm in a smaller area with less people specializing in helping people who are showing signs of mental health issues, it's been hard to find treatment for any of it.
 
incorporationated

incorporationated

mentally unstable idiot
Jan 24, 2023
78
18, suicidal since 7-8 or so.
 
draingang

draingang

białasy podbijają na funkcję jak
Feb 21, 2023
49
I'm 18 and the first time I more or less seriously thought about cbt was when I was 13 or 14 but it's been getting worse over the years. It's not even that bad but I feel helpless regardless of the severity
 
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Afterhours

Afterhours

New Member
Mar 4, 2023
4
I feel like I've been suffering forever, just want to talk to people in the same state as me
How old are you, where are you from, or just say what you want about your experiences.
Hey tomoki wanna chat ??
 
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tomoki

tomoki

Member
Mar 8, 2023
48
I feel like I've been suffering forever, just want to talk to people in the same state as me
How old are you, where are you from, or just say what you want about your experiences.
What do you do for a living?
Personally, I'm 22 years old and I'm in college (but I'm about to drop out). I'm studying medicine, but my depression is undermining me. Many people criticize me for my scars (self-mutilation) and say that a doctor should not have psychological problems.
Hey tomoki wanna chat ??
yes with pleasure :)
 
Sulyya

Sulyya

Synergist
Mar 6, 2023
423
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What do you do for a living?
Personally, I'm 22 years old and I'm in college (but I'm about to drop out). I'm studying medicine, but my depression is undermining me. Many people criticize me for my scars (self-mutilation) and say that a doctor should not have psychological problems.

yes with pleasure :)
imo that isn't right. No person, including doctors, is free of emotional issues. People act like others are flawless or should be. That isn't anyone. There are gonna be doctors who haven't endured a part of what you have mentally. Maybe a textbook example of suffering turning into strength
 
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Sulyya

Sulyya

Synergist
Mar 6, 2023
423
I see so many students enjoying life and going out, while I am unable to have a social life.
Why is life more difficult for some than for others?
Infinite types of people, infinite possibilities. The people who find themselves here have specific hardships. They're overcome in different ways but it's worth trying to find that way. It sounds like you have a potential to help others, through one form or another.

Those people who say that you shouldn't? What is the darkest possible circumstance? You become a doctor help some people then ctb? You've still done good, made a positive impact. They're wrong.
 
tomoki

tomoki

Member
Mar 8, 2023
48
Infinite types of people, infinite possibilities. The people who find themselves here have specific hardships. They're overcome in different ways but it's worth trying to find that way. It sounds like you have a potential to help others, through one form or another.

Those people who say that you shouldn't? What is the darkest possible circumstance? You become a doctor help some people then ctb? You've still done good, made a positive impact. They're wrong.
thank you very much for your answer it helps me a lot
 
Anhedoniac

Anhedoniac

Member
Feb 12, 2023
30
I am 21 and I've been depressed since childhood. Suicidal ideations originated in my early teens or so. I recall that even as a kid there were days when even getting up from bed felt like too much work, and that's supposed to be the stage where you feel the most chipper about life. I've never been a particularly ambitious person which made my family who had high expectations of me to grow bitter and treat me as a failure. Most of the things people were excited about in life or their goals seemed superfluous to me at best. When did life ever seemed like something other than a chore? I'm not sure. But this entire time I never felt like I was alive at all save for very few fleeting moments. When will this tedious chore end? I hope very soon
 
western_heart

western_heart

trying to save ourself
May 23, 2021
630
35, I have been suicidal for about 10 years, and also was for a brief time in high school. I've been depressed as long as I can remember, since adolescence. Sometimes it's worse, sometimes it's better, I never quite "recover" enough. It got serious enough for me to obtain a method in 2017, multiple times since, each one ends up thrown out after a while.

I came close/started attempting a few times in 2019 and 2022, but the first attempt I went through with fully was 10 days ago and I regret it. I'm trying to live now.
 
saringceiling

saringceiling

Complaining is not enough anymore
Mar 13, 2023
25
actualy I don't see a doctor anymore and in my country and the delay to be taken in charge is very long. Now I don't have any treatment and I have to wait at least two months before hoping to get a new prescription.
(ps I love Germany there are so many beautiful landscapes and very good food :)) )
I wish you so so much luck with that and that you get the prescription you need! I have read that you even did medical stuff and I have such respect for you. It's a hard field and I find it so funny that they belittle you over your SH scars and mental burdens???? most doctors have a incredible ego problem and probably disfunctional family's mixed with their own bags of problems.. (It's a stretch, not every doctor ofc but you know what I mean. 🥺) With the social part I unfortunately can't give you any experience that differs.. I completely destroyed my connections and pushed anyone off /: but you are doing a great step already talking to people here!!
 
Kariope

Kariope

Student
Feb 9, 2023
111
I'm 20. I don't exactly remember much before my 15s. But I've been suffering since very early, as I recall psych visits and fantasizing about suicide as a young kid. I'd say 9 or 10. I don't remember.
 
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AnxietyHangover

AnxietyHangover

Global Moderator
Aug 20, 2022
193
I'll be 27 this year. My depression worsened 2 years ago, I've never been a happy person, but my condition worsened when I lost a job and had to wait for over a year to find another one.
 

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