How often do you find yourself thinking about CTB'ing

[wanttodie]

24 -7

 

[kunikuzushi]

It's my first thought when I wake up, and then I spend the whole day doing things to stop thinking about it but it pops up around every 3 minutes.

 

[Forever Sleep]

A large proportion of every day.

 

[spøgelse]

always

 

[stressedmess]

At every minor inconvenience… so everyday, every otherday… if I'm lucky Ican go a week

 

[Forgettable]

I think about it every day, I'd say 70% of my thoughts revolve about ctb

 

[grimfigure]

I'm thinking about CTB'ing around 80% of the time I'm awake.

Obviously every damn day when my brain lights up my consciousness - there's no need for a trigger, it just so happens regularly as if it's my "personality". But well usually when i have nothing in mind, and most intense suithoughts appear hours before i go to bed

 

[soft-flower345]

Anytime between once and 4 times a day depending on my mood, sometimes I fixate on it for hours.

 

[Nights]

I'm thinking about suicide 20 percent of my day

 

[ThroughTheLight]

Basically every day. I fantasize about it when I'm bored too.

 

[Snake9111]

24/7...

 

[LadyAlastor]

I'm right there and the 80% range as well for me it's a matter of waiting because I am in a suicide pact and that requires me waiting about 7 years and the waiting drives me insane but I understand as to why better to die somewhere comfortable with your partners then die somewhere miserable.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

currently 24/7 I just wait to do it but sth keeps me back unfortunately I wish it was easier!

 

[Life interrupted]

Always thinking about it from the moment I wake up till bedtime. It's the most dominant thought in my head

 

[Techef]

I spend most of my time reading about it and doing research, experimenting/practicing the initial stages of some methods that require less equipment, and looking for sources. Since I get tired easily, I try not to think about it during breaks so I can be refreshed once break time is over. But even sleep isn't an escape - I've been having dreams about CTB'ing recently.

 

[Owl_07]

In the last weeks actually every fucking second, even in my dreams

 

[nozomu]

The only time I don't think about it is when I'm with my partner. Sometimes feelings of regret wash over me though, like I'd be sad to have to leave them because I love them so much

Otherwise, it's the main thing I'm thinking about on the daily.

 

[Sapphire]

I think about it all day long from the moment I wake up until the moment I go to bed.

 

[Unattainable666]

I think about ctb all the time. I dream about it so sleep is not a reprieve. I think about how, when, where, etc.

 

[jbear824]

I think about it everyday. Usually throughout the day.

 

[Shaylla1998]

This thought tends to linger in my mind throughout most of my waking hours. On good days, it may surface less frequently, but on bad days, it weighs heavier, occupying my thoughts for the entirety of the day.

 

[day]

Fairly frequently though I think thinking about it so much is actually to my benefit. I've been able to do lots of research and think I finally have a solid plan which to me is pretty important given I failed an OD CTB just a few months ago.

 

[FrostedHoax]

Every day, I can't escape the thoughts no matter what I'm doing or how much I try to distract myself

 

[l0stc4use]

at least once a day

 

[saddestbunny]

becoming more frequent before was at least once a day now almost constant but I think it's cause I'm making plans and it feels way more real

 

[Daxter777]

Whenever my I relapse and my anxiety gets worse then normal. Sometimes just randomly. Anxiety fuxking sucks.

this anxiety wrecks. i think about it every day but when anciety kicks in its 24/7 and my thoughts just go to ctb right now and that repeats till my anxiety attack is over

 

[SenseOfLoss]

All the time…

 

[AnxietyHangover]

Everyday even with a fairly large amount of medication. The meds make me think a bit less of it, but, it's a dominant thought in my head, I'm getting ideations very frequently, picturing my death scene in my head and all that...

 

[sayire]

not often, just every day. lol

 

[ctb-soon]

It comes in waves. Sometimes no thoughts about it to an overpowering urge to do it.

My guess a wave is what will take me away