How often do you find yourself thinking about CTB'ing

[Lilythefenfen]

Lately it's been becoming more and more of a thought in my head to the point where I obsess over it. Well I guess when the time comes it will be so normal in my head I won't (please don't let me) hesitate to take the plunge and CTB.

 

[LastOrder]

all the time... and now i have a full plan to ctb its even daydreaming...

 

[FrostedHoax]

Pretty much all the time. The few times that I'm not actively thinking about it are when I'm too focused on getting work done, running errands, or interacting with people but those thoughts are always at the back of my mind, just waiting to be triggered by the smallest things before they come to the forefront of my thoughts.

 

[Myers]

Everyday.

 

[AresCohere]

Every day, several times a day. Unless I'm actively busy doing something major like an exam, every few minutes.

It's constant, and every time it soothes me knowing that it will all be over soon enough.

 

[Renv1o_]

every day, but usually in the evenings when everything is quiet. and then i just end up hoping to god that i somehow don't wake up the next day lmao

 

[Mäximum]

All the time, unfortunately.

 

[ikadasui]

Full time job and there are no holidays

 

[FailerQt.]

Every. Single. Day. It is a way to confront myself to last just a little bit longer (until I have enough money for my method) and I'll be gone anyway.

 

[got1992thumbs]

All of the time. I am in school and I'll be sitting in class absolutely zoned out and just thinking about not being there not being here not being anywhere.

 

[Teetering]

Every day, multiple times per day. Shame it doesn't happen from will alone.

 

[Buddha.chris]

I often think about it all the time but try to distract myself as much as possible with music but it doesn't work I have a intuition I will reach a point where I can't take it anymore and my hand will be forced to try a painful methods like hanging to ctb

 

[Lintaga]

all of the time. sometimes it feels like someone flipped a switch, but i have no control over it. tired.

 

[Body bobi]

Nearly every day
Nearly every day

 

[bettertosleep]

atleast once a day

 

[SentimentalTrip]

Every. Single. Day. Sometimes I'll go a few hours without thinking about it when I'm watching a movie or something, but I think about it everyday at least once every waking hour.

 

[VioletNight]

It's really always there in the back of my mind, only goes away for days at a time when I'm really focused on something

 

[Lost Magic]

often, but I don't see death as the end. I see it as the beginning of something better. It's a natural part of this human experience that many avoid talking about, perhaps out of fear or lack of understanding. I would, however, rather die at my own hands than by a long-suffering illness. I have seen it up close and personal, and that isn't for me. To die would be a great adventure. Peace X

 

[ringo99]

At least twice a day

 

[FarewellCruelWorld]

The only thing I think about is taking control of the overwhelming sadness growing inside of me. The only thing that stops the pain is knowing I can stop it.

 

[enough of this]

Every day, several times a day. Unless I'm actively busy doing something major like an exam, every few minutes.

It's constant, and every time it soothes me knowing that it will all be over soon enough.

I think about it daily, as well. It's the most consoling thought I have. I'm so tired of existing in this insane world. I can't help but think, there's no point to this. Why not just leave.

 

[sincerely dead]

When I'm really in it, it's every millisecond of every day. There are moments where I can go a day or two without truly considering it but when it is bad, I cannot shake it off my mind.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Whenever my ocd kicks in.

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Always
No respite :(

 

[delusionalgirl]

A lot.

 

[JustWantOut500]

For me it's constant state of panic, slight relief by thinking about CTB, then right back to panic thinking about the times I've already failed and desperately trying to think of a method that will work. Rinse repeat.

 

[SunnyDay_NoSunshine]

I'm thinking about CTB'ing around 80% of the time I'm awake.

majority of my awake time past few months

 

[ggetout33]

First thing I think of when I wake up these days.

 

[purity]

basically everyday.

 

[jemetire]

Yeah almost everyday now