Constantly throughout the day. Also telling myself I need to do it, why it's the only option, how it's a good thing. I wake up thinking about it and it's on my mind when I go to sleep, all day at work, when I'm driving, while I'm eating, when I'm on a dating app, while I'm watching a movie. Those assessment that ask if you've thought about suicide in (a) the last week or (b) the last month, what planet are they from?