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Graytaichi

Wizard
Feb 14, 2022
606
No of course ,1 billion . 1million i!! Eat shit if u ask me to.
 
Insomniac

Insomniac

𝔄 𝔲 𝔱 𝔦 𝔰 𝔪
May 21, 2021
1,357
I wouldn't ctb. I would do a lot of drug and travel the world.
 
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Graytaichi

Wizard
Feb 14, 2022
606
I would create another 10 ss sites, give 1\2 to charity, travel take drugs until i die.
 
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stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,918
I think most people would spend the billion first, or at least most of it, unless they were in severe physical pain due to a medical condition. Some others might, but my gut instinct is that at least 90% of suicidal people would postpone ctb if they were given one billion dollars in cash.
I would still feel the same exact way.

Money didn't solve my problems or challenges.

I feel like it made things WORSE because of a bad situation that was never resolved or overcome.

I have had a number of problems and poor choices.

An unlimited bank account wouldn't change how I feel at this point.

I can't take back the mistakes I've made or the problems I have had with others that could have been easily resolved.

I can't do anything about how I feel.

I feel like everything inside of me has just died in general.
 
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lili

Specialist
Feb 17, 2022
319
I would most definitely not CBT.

While it wouldn't erase my traumas, it would be so much easier to live life.

I could finally move out of my living situation and not depend on anyone financially.

I wouldn't be in debt. I would be able to not have to work meaningless jobs anymore.

I could travel the world. Go back to nature.

The guy I've been having love issues with is a millionaire, and for me it makes me angry that he has so much money and he is such an asshole. I feel like he just used me and discarded me.

I've met a few people who have a lot of money that are assholes and don't care about people. Why does this happen? I wish I had money.



Of course maybe I'd still be lonely and empty eventually would want to CBT, but I'll survive a few years with a lot of money for sure.
 
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locoleather

Member
Mar 4, 2022
6
I would most definitely not CBT.

While it wouldn't erase my traumas, it would be so much easier to live life.

I could finally move out of my living situation and not depend on anyone financially.

I wouldn't be in debt. I would be able to not have to work meaningless jobs anymore.

I could travel the world. Go back to nature.

The guy I've been having love issues with is a millionaire, and for me it makes me angry that he has so much money and he is such an asshole. I feel like he just used me and discarded me.

I've met a few people who have a lot of money that are assholes and don't care about people. Why does this happen? I wish I had money.



Of course maybe I'd still be lonely and empty eventually would want to CBT, but I'll survive a few years with a lot of money for sure.
I feel the same way. And I have also met many wealthy people who turn out to be assholes. There's some sort of disconnect in people who don't have to depend on others for survival purposes and I guess a selfishness is allowed to take center stage in their lives.

What sort of love issues did you have with the millionaire, I haven't particularly been romantically involved with anyone wealthy but I've had acquaintances and that was enough for me lol.
 
Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
888
You'd need more than a billion with the price of gas now 😂
 
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lili

lili

Specialist
Feb 17, 2022
319
I feel the same way. And I have also met many wealthy people who turn out to be assholes. There's some sort of disconnect in people who don't have to depend on others for survival purposes and I guess a selfishness is allowed to take center stage in their lives.

What sort of love issues did you have with the millionaire, I haven't particularly been romantically involved with anyone wealthy but I've had acquaintances and that was enough for me lol.



I didn't know what he was until I went to his house and then he told me.

I guess it made sense why whenever we were with a group of friends he always payed for everyone's drinks and meals. He always takes taxis too. And I feel like people who do a lot of cocaine must have access to money, because I couldn't afford to do it as much.

But we slept together for a while since October. He would just tell me a lot he was in love with me and i fell for that stupidly pretty much and he has a wife that he is trying to divorce. But he's going through a lot of dilemmas, he just flips with me back and forth. Sometimes he says he feels nothing for me and pushes me away, other times he says he loves me and comes back. But looking back at all of this, obviously he would never be interested in someone like me. Not sure what I was thinking through all this, and to be honest I shouldn't be interested in him at all either.
 
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locoleather

Member
Mar 4, 2022
6
I didn't know what he was until I went to his house and then he told me.

I guess it made sense why whenever we were with a group of friends he always payed for everyone's drinks and meals. He always takes taxis too. And I feel like people who do a lot of cocaine must have access to money, because I couldn't afford to do it as much.

But we slept together for a while since October. He would just tell me a lot he was in love with me and i fell for that stupidly pretty much and he has a wife that he is trying to divorce. But he's going through a lot of dilemmas, he just flips with me back and forth. Sometimes he says he feels nothing for me and pushes me away, other times he says he loves me and comes back. But looking back at all of this, obviously he would never be interested in someone like me. Not sure what I was thinking through all this, and to be honest I shouldn't be interested in him at all either.
I'm sorry you had/have to deal with that. I don't think it was stupid to have fallen for someone telling you they love you. I get an instant feeling of pure joy when someone tells me that. So I can imagine if you were in an intimate situation and someone were to say they were in love with you that it might make you have strong feelings.

I think flipping back and forth between pushing you away and then telling you he loves you is completely unfair and to be honest sounds manipulative. I personally wouldn't want to continue any sort of relationship or connection with someone who demonstrates that sort of behavior. I for the longest time had low self esteem. Hell I still do lol. But it was always really easy for me to fall into traps with people who belittled me, took advantage of me, or manipulated me. I've learned the strongest action you can take is to remove these people from your life. Even if we at times don't feel deserving of equal treating, we shouldn't have to put up with people treating us that way.

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Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I could think of lots of creative ways of spending that money and enjoying myself.
 
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GreenTree

Mage
Jun 1, 2020
568
I never been money orientated. Money means nothing. Health is more important. I'd do anything for good health. Surely everyone here would prefer not too be suicidal than have a billion pounds.
 
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bluedreamscape

Member
Apr 17, 2021
35
I would not CTB. For me, being suicidal is about not having the mental strength to work/having intense, intense anxiety 24/7 when it comes to work and having to focus. I'm too introverted and sensitive for the workforce. So being handed a billion dollars would completely save my life.
 
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nopride86

Student
Mar 16, 2022
135
I would postpone until the high of novelty wears off. Then I'd use the money on sourcing a quick and painless method.
Hell, with that kind of money someone would probably kill me first to get their hands on it. So having it would be a win-win.
 
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Chico56

Member
Mar 27, 2022
23
Would do it instanly and transfer the money to my family
 
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todestrieb

Member
Dec 2, 2021
48
That sounds wonderful. I'd have my life repaired and ready for my son to live carefree. I'd give the world for him to live a fulfilling life without worry for material things. I'd love to leave knowing he's safe.
 
liberty_222

liberty_222

psychotic
Nov 28, 2021
361
If i had a billion dollars, I'd make sure i can get the n first and keep it with me. Money might temporarily make me happy but the sadness would plunge again. Maybe one day it would hit hard enough for me to take the n impulsively and ctb
 
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Dead Meat

Dead Meat

DOOMED
Oct 10, 2018
18,394
It wouldn't make any difference since no amount of money could ever fix my broken body. I'm just a disabled POS
 
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cyanlove

cyanlove

looking for my other half (of my skull)
Dec 23, 2021
147
If I became a billionaire overnight with no taxes, I'd open an aquarium. I probably would still eventually kill myself but at least I'd die feeling like I'd accomplished something with my life.
 
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DocNo

DocNo

whatever
Oct 30, 2020
1,753
i would burn 100millions and roast some food over the fire
 
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EraseRewind

Circling the drain
May 13, 2020
225
Yes I'd still go but would feel better that family were sorted for life.
 
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DyingMiND

It didn't have 2B like this.
Apr 4, 2022
261
Not me. No amount of money can fix my medical issues which is basically killing me in a cruel way.
 
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gcso

Member
Jun 5, 2022
28
I don't know, but I think it would kill me just the same. I would feel emptier than I do now, knowing that many around me would only be there for the money. At most I would do something useful with the money, like donations and NGO creations, then send me away.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,850
It would mean nothing to me---can't share anything with her gone--and no amount of money will cure my brother's lung cancer
 
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AliceTheGoon

Specialist
Jul 1, 2022
399
Not me. No amount of money can fix my medical issues which is basically killing me in a cruel way.
Same. I wouldn't ctb if money could help me. BUT...I bet I could get D to hand deliver some N.
 
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karel1987

Student
Dec 29, 2020
114
i don't have any interessed in money or in things to buy. I'm still anxious and depressed and material doesn't solve me issue. I don't give a fuck for a big house, fast car and expensive watches. I still hate live and want to die
 
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Aeathelina

Aeathelina

Little Homeless Girl
Feb 5, 2020
307
Honestly between a billion dollars. I'd end up dying from alcohol poisonings before I could even get another idea to CTB
 
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DyingMiND

It didn't have 2B like this.
Apr 4, 2022
261
It would mean nothing to me---can't share anything with her gone--and no amount of money will cure my brother's lung cancer
I'm so sorry for your loss and for your brother's medical illness. I totally understand. Money may allow people to afford treatment which may improve their lives, but money did Jack all for incurable illnesses and pain.:aw:
 
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DrWh033

Student
Dec 23, 2020
129
Money means shit for chronic painful physical conditions or bedbound/housebound people.
Give the billion to scientific research instead of a piece of shit that puts a price on their lives
 
KQuotientW

KQuotientW

404: Reason to live not found
Jul 17, 2022
326
I would buy a house in a city, invest half of the money* , and get the most expensive fkn legal representation to sue stalker and Vic Pol. Then, I would move to another country. With that kind of money, some countries would let me in because I can show that I have the funds to look after myself and not be a drain on the system. I'm done with this country.

I live with chronic pain / illness and would travel to the world to see top medical specialists and have any treatment that works.

I've seen lottery winners, in articles, do stupid things with the money, then it's all gone. I'm not assuming this is lotto winnings, though. Of course, some people who've grown up in poverty, counting every cent, have no concept of saving money because there's usually nothing left at the end of the week. When they get that much, they go wild buying lots of things, getting guilt tripped by "friends". Then, at the other end, there's the spoiled, entitled kids who have no concept of saving because they were always given everything and not had to ever save for something. They go wild and spend it all, thinking it doesn't matter and that it will come back. What a way to come down to Earth and burst that bubble!

If you gained that kind of money, you'll lose all your friends quickly. My mother married my stepfather for money (no, I didn't get any of it) and put me last. A lot of my friends soon changed personalities, expecting me to open my purse and throw money at them, getting angry when I didn't, and refused to believe that I was still low income. Expect to get new friends, then don't tell them. Many moochers come out of the woodwork.

Yes, really, I'm not rich and I really got nothing. I buy clothes in thrift stores.
 
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hopelessandconfused

Member
Jun 12, 2022
15
I'd testament a million or couple to my mom and the rest to charity. Wouldn't change my mind about CTB. Maybe I'd go on an overseas vacation first at most.