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Ch92921

Ch92921

The call of the void
Dec 29, 2018
909
I won't CTB if I was given 1 billion dollars. I can get celebrity therapists and move as far as I can from my family. I'd move somewhere countryside and find a kind/caring significant other for myself and lead a peaceful life.
Psychiatrist are useless for me anyway! Because at the end you have to deal with your psychological issues on your oen. They just sit in their chair and talk some theoretial stuff I cant use.
 
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Nolife33

Member
Nov 6, 2021
47
I don't know what to do with it. Maybe I would buy N and give the rest to my family. Maybe take a lot of drugs and finally end it.
 
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Ch92921

Ch92921

The call of the void
Dec 29, 2018
909
I want eternal peace and this cant be bought by money!
I think most people would spend the billion first, or at least most of it, unless they were in severe physical pain due to a medical condition. Some others might, but my gut instinct is that at least 90% of suicidal people would postpone ctb if they were given one billion dollars in cash.
Absolutly not me! You can have this fucking billion dollar!
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,392
I dunno, give me the money first and let's find out. :wink:
 
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Volo vent

Volo vent

Member
Sep 20, 2021
62
Of course no, with that cash i could solve every single of the problems in my life
I could easily find someome to love and take care because im rich
I didnt have to live in the disgusting poor country i live because i could move anywhere
I could do tons of things to never get bored
And i should never have to worry about being a cog of society
 
willitpass

willitpass

Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
Mar 10, 2020
3,219
i'd use it to buy a good quality rope to gang myself rather than going for what i can afford, and then i will leave the rest for my family to be financially stable
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,707
I have very little money but don't even spend much of that apart from bills. All due to various conditions. It would be nice to obtain N. Once gone I would leave the billion to @Smart No More.
 
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Toonloon

Toonloon

Experienced
Nov 17, 2020
253
Yes. I would only give the money away to my family. I don't give a fuck about money.
 
Foresight

Foresight

Enlightened
Jun 14, 2019
1,393
Show me the money.

Too many experiences and opportunities to play with at that point. I would only ctb being rich if physical pain was too strong or cognitive impairment was taking over.
 
sealbabies

sealbabies

Student
Mar 27, 2022
100
That money would only go towards my ctb and everything left would be given to my mom to work out. If anything, might make ctb easier and faster.
 
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lostmylove

lostmylove

Specialist
Apr 1, 2022
304
Wouldn't be interested I'm too broken. I've lost the love of my life. All the gold in the world wouldn't make a dent into way I feel. It's not even a matter of hypothetical either, I could of done really good things with my life and had massive potential but I don't have any desire left or fight.
 
NSA

NSA

Your friendly neighborhood agent
Feb 21, 2022
271
Can't say with absolute certainty I wouldn't still kill myself at some point, but I'd sure like to find out.

Edit: wtf am I saying? Yeah pro-life billionaire, give me some of that and I'll stay alive as long as you fucking want. I could afford it then.
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,570
health more important than money no amount of money can fix a brain injury, i'll just leave sooner or later anyway no amount of money would keep me here for very long
 
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Pain In The Ass

Pain In The Ass

Wizard
Feb 10, 2022
638
I think most people would spend the billion first, or at least most of it, unless they were in severe physical pain due to a medical condition. Some others might, but my gut instinct is that at least 90% of suicidal people would postpone ctb if they were given one billion dollars in cash.
I'd buy somewhere with no stairs, away from all noise, and seek every possible experimental pain treatment going
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,200
I feel like I have already won a billion dollars after I got N lol, but I probably would try to live a few more good years and donate the rest to various charities. I just don't like Greed and excess in general. I recently wrote a post about it.
 
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MatthewV3

MatthewV3

Student
Dec 15, 2021
107
I don't think I would be able to do anythig with that amount of money. I would go to Switzerland and pay as much as Dignitas would demand to be able to use Sarco Device/ Nembutal at the age of 22. The rest of the money I would give to my mom and my young brother.
 
its-about-time

its-about-time

nope
Mar 19, 2022
807
I'd probably stay alive for quite some time. It wouldn't solve my problems but it would be an opportunity to go do a lot of things I've always wanted to do or used to do before I got sick. I think I could have a lot of fun with it. I imagine I'd end up manic and off myself randomly, but I'd be having a lot of fun in the meantime.

Have you ever seen the movie "Welcome to Me"? That's what I imagine would happen to me. Bipolar woman wins the lottery and makes an Oprah-style tv show about herself, but even though she's achieving her dream, her mental illness eventually gets the best of her. It's a pretty funny movie, if you can laugh through how tragic the story is.
 
I need peace

I need peace

The past is never dead, it's not even past.
Mar 28, 2022
141
Most of my problems would be manageable if I had any money, so I'd probably give up or postpone ctb
 
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Cathy Ames

Cathy Ames

Cautionary Tale
Mar 11, 2022
2,109
I could stay alive and have a life worth living for a billion dollars.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I would CTB later buy a house and move from parents but I'll still CTB
 
Shu

Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
2,487
If I were given that. A. I'd get N. B. I'd still kill myself. C. I'd leave the money for my family and or donate a shit ton of it to a charity I know will use it for good.
 
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sharky

sharky

Lost
Dec 15, 2021
283
I would try and live my out my dreams, do everything I ever wanted to. Give most of the money to other people in need, because that's a fantastic feeling and helping people is a good thing. Then eventually some day I would just ctb in the best way possible: explode in the middle of the desert with some tnt.
 
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Seiba

Seiba

Mage
Jun 13, 2021
505
A billion dollars is pretty absurd. My past homeschooling which resulted in educational neglect wouldn't matter, I would be able to afford to move away and not worry about being homeless, and I would have enough money to have freedom to do nothing or anything at all. I would probably massively postpone my suicide for 50k, let alone a billion dollars. No enjoyability or emotional drive isn't so severe when you have so much freedom, but who knows. People who have millions have decided to leave, so maybe I would still end up going.
 
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onlyanimalsaregood

onlyanimalsaregood

Unlovable 💔 Rest in peace CommitSudoku 🤍
Mar 11, 2022
1,329
Money can't buy happiness
 
onlyanimalsaregood

onlyanimalsaregood

Unlovable 💔 Rest in peace CommitSudoku 🤍
Mar 11, 2022
1,329
Sure, but poverty buys you nothing. Money buys you opportunity and freedom.
It's also true.
I agree. Money is a tool. from my experience I can tell that.
Yes If I were rich I would be unhappy anyway. With the same problems and traumas.
 
BigGimpin

BigGimpin

Student
Mar 24, 2022
127
I have 10k I want to recklessly spend on something before hopping on the bus. Almost spent 4k last night on a bitchen PC. I sure wish I had street drugs available, only drug I havent tried was H.

Speaking of drugs/getting "high" What would N be like in a non fatal dose? Is it a good ride? Should of bought 3 bottles, 1 to play with and the other 2 for CTB.

I will say, ever since getting my N from D I have felt way more secure, knowing that its there...kind of a strange feeling to be honest.
 
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bloodfallsfirst

bloodfallsfirst

Member
Nov 2, 2021
73
I'd buy the best method possible and leave the money to my friend. She wants to travel and do lots of fun stuff with her life, and she's the one getting mentioned in my note as the one to give my stuff to.
 
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Chovyfan

Member
Dec 31, 2021
29
It would prolong life a bit for me but ultimately even a billion dollars is too little too late for me.

I've made up my mind.