How many of you have a job?

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I was and still am a creative freelancer. I loved my job. It meant everything to me. It's so hard to sustain financially though- so I'm currently looking for a more stable job. Or- temporary work to do alongside my freelance work. It's not going well. I'm so unmotivated. Doing the bare minimum each day. I already know from 10 years previous experience that I'm going to hate a wage slave job- if I'm 'lucky' enough to even get one.

It's honestly the main reason I want to CTB. I expect that sounds lame to a lot of people but I don't really care. Picture the most important thing in your life- and losing it. That's how I feel.

It's not lame at all. Most jobs seem horrible to me. Doing something you don't like every fucking day is just... soul-crushing. I hope you find a way to earn a living again with your freelance work

 

[Secret]

No job. Been unable to work for many years now due to my mh problems.
Makes me feel like an absolute failure tbh. I see so many other people my age and even younger, out there living their lives and earning money. Then there is me. Barely able to make it from day to day as my head is so dark and everything is just too hard.

 

[lukas19]

Is anyone here on Disability?

Yes, i have enough money to live, just. But i never leave my flat but all day every day all i dream off is CTB

 

[Secret]

Is anyone here on Disability?

Yes. I have been for years now. Here in the UK there is so much stigma and judgements about people who are on benefits. :(

 

[newave3]

I'm part time employed in McDonald's which is such a toxic environment and sucks.

The food is toxic too.

 

[Susannah]

I have a job, and I like it. But the salary is so shitty that I'd be better off economically if I had a mental illness.
Cause:

The state of Norway has "mental health as a priority". I don't mind that thought, but old people in Norway is now dying in their own shit. I've seen it, and it's awful.

 

[jessisme]

Yes. I have been for years now. Here in the UK there is so much stigma and judgements about people who are on benefits. :(

I'm in the US and there is stigma against people on disability here too. I have been on it for the past twelve years but have really needed it as my condition with Bipolar keeps me pretty unstable even while medicated. I live with my mother and her stability helps a lot in this too.

 

[Secret]

I'm in the US and there is stigma against people on disability here too. I have been on it for the past twelve years but have really needed it as my condition with Bipolar keeps me pretty unstable even while medicated. I live with my mother and her stability helps a lot in this too.

I think wherever you are, the stigma will always be there, sadly. I live with my mum too. Her and my animals are the reason I am not CTB just yet.
The area where I stay (in the countryside) either people are retired or are working full time. So I am the odd one out.

 

[jessisme]

I think wherever you are, the stigma will always be there, sadly. I live with my mum too. Her and my animals are the reason I am not CTB just yet.
The area where I stay (in the countryside) either people are retired or are working full time. So I am the odd one out.

My mother and my animals are what keeps me from ctb too. The neighborhood we live in is mostly younger working families. My mother is retired and so we spend most of our time together. We live here on our own and I help her with a lot of stuff and I worry some
about what will happen for her when I am (inevitably) gone. It's all very uncertain and scary. I think when you are on disability you are always going to be the odd one out in most cases. I try not to let it bother me. I do lie to some people and tell them I am employed just to escape their (harsh) judgement.

 

[Secret]

My mother and my animals are what keeps me from ctb too. The neighborhood we live in is mostly younger working families. My mother is retired and so we spend most of our time together. We live here on our own and I help her with a lot of stuff and I worry some
about what will happen for her when I am (inevitably) gone. It's all very uncertain and scary. I think when you are on disability you are always going to be the odd one out in most cases. I try not to let it bother me. I do lie to some people and tell them I am employed just to escape their (harsh) judgement.

You are right, it is scary. The future terrifies me if I am being completely honest. I rely on my mum a lot. I can't drive and since we don't live within walking distance to a train station or on a bus route since they stopped it, so I do rely on her to drive me if need be.
I don't think she thought her 34 year old daughter would still be at home at this age, but here we are.

I dont think there is anything wrong with lying about something like that, if it gets people off your case.

 

[Susannah]

Yes. I have been for years now. Here in the UK there is so much stigma and judgements about people who are on benefits. :(

And here in Norway, it's almost the opposite. People on benefits often know the social systeme. They know how to use them, and how to get around the systeme without being caught. Most of them are refugies, or Polish or Sweedish.

Norwegian oil money is providing for everyone else but the Norwegians. Norway is still a little scared country. So afraid not being friends with the whole world, but we share border with Russia up north. "Must be careful".

Norway is member of NATO, and of course FN. "Must be careful".
But Norway said NO to EU.

Come to Norway. You can take over my appartment when I'm gone.

 

[jessisme]

You are right, it is scary. The future terrifies me if I am being completely honest. I rely on my mum a lot. I can't drive and since we don't live within walking distance to a train station or on a bus route since they stopped it, so I do rely on her to drive me if need be.
I don't think she thought her 34 year old daughter would still be at home at this age, but here we are.

I dont think there is anything wrong with lying about something like that, if it gets people off your case.

I don't drive either and my mother drives me most everywhere I need to go where I can't walk (which is most places). I don't think my mother ever thought that she would have what is essentially a completely dependent daughter at the age of 45. It's just turned out that way. It's good to hear from other people in similar positions. I feel for you as I know it's not easy. It's good to know I'm not alone. xoxox

 

[Forest Fire]

I'm fortunate that i was able to get a job that the monkeys off the old pg tips adverts would be over qualified for. Despite regularly being off sick i've been able to hold it down for over a decade now. I'm in the same boat as a couple of people on here in that one of my parents drives me there. Makes me feel like shit relying on them in my mid thirties, especially as they are getting on now and i should be looking after them.

 

[jessisme]

I don't think I fit into any of the categories. Worked all my life since my teens, until a few years ago.

My mental health took a major nosedive and I was no longer able to work. I am permanently disabled. (Mental health- not physical).

Don't really fit into the "unemployed, not mentally stable to work at the moment" category. My moment isn't coming back.

Are you on disability?

I'm fortunate that i was able to get a job that the monkeys off the old pg tips adverts would be over qualified for. Despite regularly being off sick i've been able to hold it down for over a decade now. I'm in the same boat as a couple of people on here in that one of my parents drives me there. Makes me feel like shit relying on them in my mid thirties, especially as they are getting on now and i should be looking after them.

I don't work but my mother is 71 and I am 45. I live with her and she STILL takes care of me as if I were a teenager. It's true I do things to help her but I'm not able to do for her or take care of myself as I would like to if I were more independent. It sucks because I see other people my age taking care of themselves, their kids AND their parents when I can't even adequately take care of myself.

 

[sadstuffie]

i love my job & all my friends there! it's one of the things that keeps me going, we are all supportive of each other. my work family is what i consider to be my real family.

 

[SamTam33]

I'm looking for a job but I'm too non-white to get hired in my field. I have another interview next week.

I can hardly wait to see what creative way they say, "You don't look like us so we're going with a candidate who does."

We're anticipating a lot of business from Europe so we went with a candidate who can connect with those customers.

You scored a near perfect match on your assessment, but the hiring manager went with someone whose experience she connected with more.

"Connect" is their buzzword of choice. It's coded, but I know what it means.

It's an established company that has the feel of a close family... Are you sure this is what you're looking for?

Who doesn't want to be part of an established family?!

But yeah, I saw the rows and rows of white men on your leadership team. Point me in the direction of the companies where this isn't the case and I'll apply there. In the meantime, fuck you and everyone like you.

Or maybe it'll be another company that suddenly "went bankrupt and shut down" less than 18 hours after I interviewed.

The recruiter hounded me for 2 weeks based on my resume. But soon after we spoke via Zoom, the company "went bankrupt."

It's a PUBLICLY TRADED company you potato-faced liar. And Google and the NYSE says otherwise.

(I need a place to release my hate. This isn't the space for it. But I don't know what to do with it and it's taking a toll)

 

[Ghostofthepast]

I had a job I loved lost it and now idk what to do

 

[Inferno]

I have a job, as long as I get paid I don't care. Even if it's shitty.

 

[Soulless Angel]

Yes. I have been for years now. Here in the UK there is so much stigma and judgements about people who are on benefits. :(

I get that PIP, but people who are working get it too, so why should their be a stigma its fucking frustrating

 

[Aesthetic guy]

84h/week factory worker here... And i dont like it

 

[Secret]

I don't drive either and my mother drives me most everywhere I need to go where I can't walk (which is most places). I don't think my mother ever thought that she would have what is essentially a completely dependent daughter at the age of 45. It's just turned out that way. It's good to hear from other people in similar positions. I feel for you as I know it's not easy. It's good to know I'm not alone. xoxox

It is good to hear from other people who are in similar situations. I often feel so alone.
Today Mum has been saying how she worries about how I will manage when she is no longer here. Of course it has crossed my mind, but I also really do NOT want or have any plans on still being here then. Her and my animals are the only reasons why I haven't CTB yet.
Honestly not where I thought I'd be when I was this age,not that I knew completely but I figured I would be independent, working, driving and contributing to society.
XxxxxX

I get that PIP, but people who are working get it too, so why should their be a stigma its fucking frustrating

I understand completely. Many see those on benefits as scroungers, even though there are people who work receive benefits. Just one of those things that people seem to think.

 

[jessisme]

It is good to hear from other people who are in similar situations. I often feel so alone.
Today Mum has been saying how she worries about how I will manage when she is no longer here. Of course it has crossed my mind, but I also really do NOT want or have any plans on still being here then. Her and my animals are the only reasons why I haven't CTB yet.
Honestly not where I thought I'd be when I was this age,not that I knew completely but I figured I would be independent, working, driving and contributing to society.
XxxxxX


I understand completely. Many see those on benefits as scroungers, even though there are people who work receive benefits. Just one of those things that people seem to think.

Yes I thought I would be in a successful career at the very least have a job. I look around and all of my peers seem to these successful careers, houses, spouses, kids, vehicles, etc… I sincerely don't know how they manage it all when it's all I can do to get up showered and dressed. It would be nice to be independent but I have been dependent for so long now (about ten years) that it is all I know and with the way my mental illness affects me I don't know how I would manage any different. It's sad and I hate feeling different like I am. I hate being ashamed of the way my life is. My mother doesn't talk about my life after her passing although she must have thought about it before: it must have crossed her mind at least once. In general she doesn't like thinking about unpleasant things so that might be why it hasn't come up. It's important to me to ctb before she goes into some sort of retirement home living situation. When she does I will be homeless, destitute and left to struggle in the streets on my own. She will know that is my situation and there will be nothing that she could do about it. Needless to say that is not a desirable situation for anyone and I really have to be sure that I am able to ctb before that happens. I have my SN but I haven't gotten the will to do it yet.

 

[Judy Garland]

It is good to hear from other people who are in similar situations. I often feel so alone.
Today Mum has been saying how she worries about how I will manage when she is no longer here. Of course it has crossed my mind, but I also really do NOT want or have any plans on still being here then. Her and my animals are the only reasons why I haven't CTB yet.
Honestly not where I thought I'd be when I was this age,not that I knew completely but I figured I would be independent, working, driving and contributing to society.
XxxxxX


I understand completely. Many see those on benefits as scroungers, even though there are people who work receive benefits. Just one of those things that people seem to think.

Yes I thought I would be in a successful career at the very least have a job. I look around and all of my peers seem to these successful careers, houses, spouses, kids, vehicles, etc… I sincerely don't know how they manage it all when it's all I can do to get up showered and dressed. It would be nice to be independent but I have been dependent for so long now (about ten years) that it is all I know and with the way my mental illness affects me I don't know how I would manage any different. It's sad and I hate feeling different like I am. I hate being ashamed of the way my life is. My mother doesn't talk about my life after her passing although she must have thought about it before: it must have crossed her mind at least once. In general she doesn't like thinking about unpleasant things so that might be why it hasn't come up. It's important to me to ctb before she goes into some sort of retirement home living situation. When she does I will be homeless, destitute and left to struggle in the streets on my own. She will know that is my situation and there will be nothing that she could do about it. Needless to say that is not a desirable situation for anyone and I really have to be sure that I am able to ctb before that happens. I have my SN but I haven't gotten the will to do it yet.

I'm applying for disability here in the US. I tried to start an application online but their system is messed up so I have to call tomorrow. I don't know what I'm in for but I know the process is long and tedious. And yes, anyone who hears that I'm not working and applying for disability judges me. I was just diagnosed with schizophrenia in the past year. I was told that I would be denied and I would have to appeal when the time comes because apparently the majority of people get denied first time around. I'm not in the mood for this. I just want it all to be over. I just want death. Sweet death.

 

[Ilayis]

I had a job for the last 1 1/2 yrs kind of working as a team but mostly alone at the same time. Lost it 3 weeks ago due to massive downsizing. I've lost many many jobs do to my major depression and suicidal issues in the past though. Hell I almost lost this one a couple times(especially during holiday depression). Just end up becoming a self mute and hardly able to work so everyone thought I was just being a lazy asshole!!

 

[RaspberriesLL]

I'm part time employed in McDonald's which is such a toxic environment and sucks.

Yeah I bet it's really hard having to deal with rude customers. Hope you find something else that isn't so toxic.

 

[Darkover]

i've never worked in my 36 years alive since my 18th i've been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia
been on disability and still on it, but i love to program computers into i got a brain injury in 2016 just after my 30th birthday
so can't even program anymore i did write software and release it to the public which had over 100k download plus i made 10k profit

 

[ohtwoait]

Anyone else in the "Not mentally able to work, but looking for a job anyway" camp? I got fired a month or so ago due to laziness being too depressed/anxious/??? to survive at work, and as far as I can tell the problem's slowly getting worse (the last time I left the house I was literally shaking despite never being scared of going out before), but I have to continue the job search anyway because, yknow, rent >.<

It's kinda my dream to be a vtuber or maybe an artist taking commissions someday, but they both seem like such unachievable goals, especially considering that I might just CTB due to getting evicted or something before that ever happens

 

[5417807]

Technically I have no job (I don't get payed for it) but I'm a stay at home father. I ended up having a psychotic episode last time I was in full time employment because of work related stress. I like being a stay at home father though, much nicer then working a shitty job that worsens my mental and physical health conditions

 

[JM2RXA]

I have a job, a fairly senior position, but despite as accommodating work are for time off, I'm probably going to be let go sooner or later with the amount of time I'm having to have off.

 

[ShanaRei]

I worked until 2020 when Covid ruined everything. Worked freelance for a few years but it's been one tragedy after tragedy and I'm not sure what else to do. I only really have skills in retail and that was what killed my MH in the first place so I have no desire to go back to that.