How many of you have a job?

[Soulless Angel]

I had rum... I brought another business... fuck working proper work, 2k lighter... but fuck it! I want to do something to apease society, but I refuse to bow to the powers of the goverment and their rules and I refuse to work for an employer who turns you into a robot forcing you to confirm to their ideals.
If i have to work, then I am doing it my way

 

[Blue_mist]

12 hrs. / week as offices cleaner, i heve university degree and graduate certificate though but i can't work with people due to mental illness that's why I am working as a janitor after hours which is valid reason for me to CTB.

 

[Justnotme]

I have a job that takes away the last remnants of my vitality, because I have to work to be able to buy food for myself and for my cats. Every day I want to quit working, but I realize that I have no choice, because I'm still afraid of dying, I'm afraid of a failed attempt. It's the only thing that keeps me at work.
I work only at night, but I am not paid more because of night shifts, although this is a violation of the labor code. But in my country, no one cares that people work for pennies that they honestly earned.
I really want to quit, because after every shift my body hurts a lot, and my head hurts almost everyday, even on weekends.
I'm waiting for the moment when I finally decide to die. I'm finally leaving.
I hope that my relatives will take care of my beloved cats...

 

[scuicideuser2023]

I have a job that takes away the last remnants of my vitality, because I have to work to be able to buy food for myself and for my cats. Every day I want to quit working, but I realize that I have no choice, because I'm still afraid of dying, I'm afraid of a failed attempt. It's the only thing that keeps me at work.
I work only at night, but I am not paid more because of night shifts, although this is a violation of the labor code. But in my country, no one cares that people work for pennies that they honestly earned.
I really want to quit, because after every shift my body hurts a lot, and my head hurts almost everyday, even on weekends.
I'm waiting for the moment when I finally decide to die. I'm finally leaving.
I hope that my relatives will take care of my beloved cats...

I'm a fellow cat owner as well. She keeps me from ctb. I know my fam won't take care of her so I've been holding on best I can. Maybe that's what makes us special. Our love for our fur babies.

 

[Justnotme]

I'm a fellow cat owner as well. She keeps me from ctb. I know my fam won't take care of her so I've been holding on best I can. Maybe that's what makes us special. Our love for our fur babies.

It's terrible that your family won't be able to take care of your cat... It's just awful. Do you think it will be difficult for your family to feed your cat and change her cat toilet for her? Perhaps they will not be able to give her the same love that you give her, but at least your family will be able to satisfy the basic needs of a cat, perhaps?
Maybe you can start looking for a new home for your cat for now?

 

[attempt2]

I have a job that I'm good at when I'm feeling good, but the past month has been rough and so I've started making mistakes that I normally wouldn't.

Love that my work allow mental health days and things like that, but I need a mental health month and can't see them being happy with that

 

[scuicideuser2023]

It's terrible that your family won't be able to take care of your cat... It's just awful. Do you think it will be difficult for your family to feed your cat and change her cat toilet for her? Perhaps they will not be able to give her the same love that you give her, but at least your family will be able to satisfy the basic needs of a cat, perhaps?
Maybe you can start looking for a new home for your cat for now?

My fam and I are allergic to cats. I take an allergy pill but my fam would just give her to a shelter.
I think that's what keeping me from killing myself. My only option is to give her to my local animal shelter.
I think they would take good care of her but it's going to break her heart. I think she really loves me which doesn't make sense cause I'm such a fuck up. I'm not a good person.

 

[Justnotme]

My fam and I are allergic to cats. I take an allergy pill but my fam would just give her to a shelter.
I think that's what keeping me from killing myself. My only option is to give her to my local animal shelter.
I think they would take good care of her but it's going to break her heart. I think she really loves me which doesn't make sense cause I'm such a fuck up. I'm not a good person.

Can I ask why you think you're a bad person?

 

[scuicideuser2023]

I'm not really a bad person. I suffer from OCD caused by childhood trauma. So I have a myopic view of ever little tiny transgression I've done coupled with conditioning by the thought police like political correctness on television. I start to feel like I'm pure evil when in reality I'm normal. I have to take a deep breath and then I can see I've been fucking way to hard on myself. It's not a sin to not want to work. I'm thinking now of saying fuck society and it's conditioning. If things get bad enough where I go homeless I'll look at it as a blessing. Let the other fuckers continue the rat race while i live peaceful in the forest with my pets. It's better than being on my soul killing ssri. I'm tired of trying to get myself to a mental headspace where work is possible. I know working is just a modern form of slavery and don't want to be a slave anymore. I just can't kill myself because then my cat would suffer mentally by me abandoning her, so I think that's going to be my new plan.

 

[unimaginativelamp]

I have a job and am working on my masters degree.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I am lucky to have a job but I have been on leave since December and likely will lose it soon because I am not ready to go back and my job protection ends soon.

 

[fizi22]

i have a tough choice to make. either drastically cut my expenses, or get a job.

basically, i could try going out with a bang and just spend all my money and ctb after or get a job and show how that goes.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

I made enough mony that I can live from rental income since 10 years.

 

[Givenuponlife]

12 hrs. / week as offices cleaner, i heve university degree and graduate certificate though but i can't work with people due to mental illness that's why I am working as a janitor after hours which is valid reason for me to CTB.

You could become the Almighty Janitor, if that helps

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Severe depression and anxiety keeps me mostly bedbound and unable to function properly, much less hold a job. It's humiliating.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

I'm pretty much deluded. I've always had a dream to coach football/soccer for a living. I even went and got my coaching badges and such in the same place in Scotland that many coaches did, like Jose Mourinho.

 

[Bitterman1996]

dropped out from med school because depression, basically a NEET for now.

 

[Flameboyant]

I used to work parttime at a dream job, but I became too mentally unfit to be able to continue. I live on welfare for now and am grateful my country is generous with it.

 

[Destiny Calls Me]

Been unemployed for the last several months. I always struggled going to work. Never found something I actually liked doing.

My thought is money is a worthless made up object used for control, class structure and enslavement.

 

[Meatball]

No, I don't have one, AND I'm not even seeking it. That's why I deserve all this mental torment.

I have a disgusting luxury of being able to literally do nothing for months. Even though I don't have any right to do so.
I'm a burden on my father, on this system, on this society.
By sheer luck I was given a large amount of money, which is an opportunity to finally start setting up my life, or at least doing something useful with it. I've never even seen so much money, let alone make it...
But instead I'm just laying around, degenerating, drinking beer, destroying my health, wasting my life's best years, horribly abusing my father's generosity, and burning off the money on basically nothing. And there ain't much left. All that, while my father works his ass off on 3 f***ing jobs, pays all bills and does everything around the house.

Glancing at my shrinking balance drives me into anxiety attacks. My mental state is so unstable that I fearfully avoid almost every damn action. Avoid talking to my father, or even looking at him...

It is kind of funny how suicide starts seeming like the adult thing to do.

Been unemployed for the last several months. I always struggled going to work. Never found something I actually liked doing.

My thought is money is a worthless made up object used for control, class structure and enslavement.

I feel like money sort of IS actually what you said, but it is also many other things.

 

[xenoz]

Anyone else in the "Not mentally able to work, but looking for a job anyway" camp? I got fired a month or so ago due to laziness being too depressed/anxious/??? to survive at work, and as far as I can tell the problem's slowly getting worse (the last time I left the house I was literally shaking despite never being scared of going out before), but I have to continue the job search anyway because, yknow, rent >.<

It's kinda my dream to be a vtuber or maybe an artist taking commissions someday, but they both seem like such unachievable goals, especially considering that I might just CTB due to getting evicted or something before that ever happens

This is pretty much the same camp I'm in. Already violently depressed to begin with, and the only reason I'm still looking for a job is because the way I'm treated by my family for not having a job makes my episodes worse. I really do it just to placate them rather than help myself.

Also can relate to wanting to be a content creator but it feeling like an unachievable pipe dream. I want to do so much, but I feel like once I actually start putting in the work to do any of them I'm gonna lose interest anyway, so might as well just stay stagnant and spend my days building up the will to CTB.

 

[krxbs]

i'm a university student but i might get a part time gig so i can have some money to spoil my friends with. hope all of y'all here find what you're looking for, whether that's just getting employed anywhere or getting your dream job.

 

[TransilvanianHunger]

Self-employed, and I rather like what I'm doing at the moment. But the thing I really, really like about it is the flexibility it affords me. For example, I'm feeling a bit drained today, so I'll just take it easy. I have a couple of quick things to take care of, but after that I can relax, read a book, take a nap, watch something, whatever. I'm never going to get rich like this, but I prefer a simple life and I'd rather not have my energy syphoned off by an employer.

I'm also considering going back to school yet again. Being in charge of my own work schedule would actually allow me to do it, and education here is not obscenely expensive like it is in the US, so I can probably manage the expenses.

 

[Raven2]

I have 2 part time jobs. Main job I enjoy and have worked there for many years. Atm I'm 100% lone working which I like as theres no one to annoy me and I have no manager on site either which is a bonus. No micro managing for me. I couldn't imagine doing anything else. I think I'd panic if I had to look for work, go to interviews etc. So I'm hanging on to what I've got.