Discussion How many of you feel lonely?

[Raichu]

I guess the biggest paradox about loneliness is that you can be with everyone and still feel lonely and on the other hand you can be alone and yet not be lonely.

In my case however, loneliness is more like the universe, ever widening and ever expanding. I really cannot figure out what exactly is wrong. True, there have been various traumatic events in my life, but I never thought everything would spiral down to absolute nothingness. I keep pushing, indulging in studies, hobbies I like and hoping for the future; but there's this abyss I can never escape. Almost as if it's staring at me. It's more like a weird alloy of nihilism and absurdism. I know nothing matters yet everything seems to matter. It's not exactly a philosophical void I am experiencing but I really don't know how to convey what I am exactly feeling. I am here with my family, they have been toxic with me I admit. But there's also this fact that they had always tried to be by my side. And no I don't blame them for anything, but its just that nothing is making sense and what I feel is a deep void of nothingness. Not hopelessness, not sadness, nor anything just nothingness!


Anyone else here that goes through something similar?

 

[Plutopolis]

Hello. While reading your words, I felt like I could understand on some level what you mean. I feel lonely all the time. I also feel isolated. I lost the friends I did have. I live away from parents. I feel alone among people. Always.

 

[Raichu]

It worsens everyday

 

[LostLily]

Always, even when with friends I can't help but feel lonely.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Hi there, I can relate to feeling empty. Like done. Like there is nothing, even with everything still around. Removed or separated, almost being in an unreality.

 

[theolivanderroach]

I don't feel lonely when I'm alone but I do when I'm around other people. Even though I have friends, I don't feel connected to them in any way. I've never felt a genuine connection with anyone ever. It makes me feel like a sociopath. I also feel a deep void of nothingness.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I still feel incredibly around my friends, especially when they're all paired up with other people and making out with each other right in front of me. It's a reminder that I've never gotten to experience romantic love and never will. If I ever somehow did and still felt lonely I guess there's nothing left for me.

 

[simonttt]

I feel lonely in the sense that I can't really talk to my friends or family about my mental health problems. They can't really help with what I face. It's weird but the more I'm at events that I enjoy like a concert, the more I dissociate and spend the whole time thinking about CTB. There s something irrationnal that's dragging me away from them, slowly but surely, and I dont' have control over it. And there's just nothing to do but observe myself sinking

 

[Seered Doom]

A lot more now than I ever had before. I'm a social hermit. Normally, I'm fine with being alone for long periods of time, but at this point, it's just painful.