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me to I'd rather die than live a life being miserable1 year, tried once... I should've done it 6-7 years ago. I'm a mad man, and I'd rather die than live a life being miserable and alone...
Just wondered how long everyone here has been suicidal, and if you have any previous attempts.
I've been suicidal since I realized I was on a cesspool planet and I'm going to suffer for no good reason, and then realized suicide was even a thing. So, about age 10. I've attempted I think about 5 times. First time was when I was in 9th grade. I overdosed on Tylenol but just projectile vomited a few times and was fine. Next time was college, tried partial suspension hanging from my dorm room closet. I didn't even get dizzy. Had forgotten about this time until a few days ago, actually. 3rd was a few years after college, when I lived with an abusive ex and was desperate to get out, tried drinking myself to death. Just threw up a lot and was fine. 4th time was last year, as my health started getting worse, trying strangulation with a strap. I'm too fat for it to work properly lol. 5th time I tried overdosing on OTC meds and putting a bag over my head, but I just vomited blood and foam a few times, never fainted.
This is about a fictonal characters sister. Not me.
If we are counting drinking to death so many timesXD. A few months ago I leaned on a mountain edge with my 9mn to the back of my head. I loaded the gun pulled the trigger and the gun jammed. I cussed my luck. If only I had cleaned my gun beforehand. Other than inital anger I felt absolutly nothing. I felt alot of anger, more so than when I waited in highschool by the train tracks for a train to come that never came that day. Ever since I have had a gun I have been able to hold a loaded gun to my head with no reaction whatsoever from me. My main regret it life is I did not succeed in killing myself is highschool. I have never been glad I faled. I have regretted failling more times than I count. I already know if I do not do it soon I risk getting caught up in obligations so I feel like I can't. I am not going to do that. I set plans to move accross the country but I have no intention of doing that. I plan on dying here.
Which coast are you on?If I'm being brutally honest with myself, I moved across country to die. It was just too hard to do back home.
This is about a fictonal characters sister. Not me.If I'm being brutally honest with myself, I moved across country to die. It was just too hard to do back home.
Just wondered how long everyone here has been suicidal, and if you have any previous attempts.
I've been suicidal since I realized I was on a cesspool planet and I'm going to suffer for no good reason, and then realized suicide was even a thing. So, about age 10. I've attempted I think about 5 times. First time was when I was in 9th grade. I overdosed on Tylenol but just projectile vomited a few times and was fine. Next time was college, tried partial suspension hanging from my dorm room closet. I didn't even get dizzy. Had forgotten about this time until a few days ago, actually. 3rd was a few years after college, when I lived with an abusive ex and was desperate to get out, tried drinking myself to death. Just threw up a lot and was fine. 4th time was last year, as my health started getting worse, trying strangulation with a strap. I'm too fat for it to work properly lol. 5th time I tried overdosing on OTC meds and putting a bag over my head, but I just vomited blood and foam a few times, never fainted.
Just wondered how long everyone here has been suicidal, and if you have any previous attempts.
I've been suicidal since I realized I was on a cesspool planet and I'm going to suffer for no good reason, and then realized suicide was even a thing. So, about age 10. I've attempted I think about 5 times. First time was when I was in 9th grade. I overdosed on Tylenol but just projectile vomited a few times and was fine. Next time was college, tried partial suspension hanging from my dorm room closet. I didn't even get dizzy. Had forgotten about this time until a few days ago, actually. 3rd was a few years after college, when I lived with an abusive ex and was desperate to get out, tried drinking myself to death. Just threw up a lot and was fine. 4th time was last year, as my health started getting worse, trying strangulation with a strap. I'm too fat for it to work properly lol. 5th time I tried overdosing on OTC meds and putting a bag over my head, but I just vomited blood and foam a few times, never fainted.