
Sonnenblume
Sunflower Panda
- Apr 6, 2018
- 574
Just wondered how long everyone here has been suicidal, and if you have any previous attempts.
I've been suicidal since I realized I was on a cesspool planet and I'm going to suffer for no good reason, and then realized suicide was even a thing. So, about age 10. I've attempted I think about 5 times. First time was when I was in 9th grade. I overdosed on Tylenol but just projectile vomited a few times and was fine. Next time was college, tried partial suspension hanging from my dorm room closet. I didn't even get dizzy. Had forgotten about this time until a few days ago, actually. 3rd was a few years after college, when I lived with an abusive ex and was desperate to get out, tried drinking myself to death. Just threw up a lot and was fine. 4th time was last year, as my health started getting worse, trying strangulation with a strap. I'm too fat for it to work properly lol. 5th time I tried overdosing on OTC meds and putting a bag over my head, but I just vomited blood and foam a few times, never fainted.
I've been suicidal since I realized I was on a cesspool planet and I'm going to suffer for no good reason, and then realized suicide was even a thing. So, about age 10. I've attempted I think about 5 times. First time was when I was in 9th grade. I overdosed on Tylenol but just projectile vomited a few times and was fine. Next time was college, tried partial suspension hanging from my dorm room closet. I didn't even get dizzy. Had forgotten about this time until a few days ago, actually. 3rd was a few years after college, when I lived with an abusive ex and was desperate to get out, tried drinking myself to death. Just threw up a lot and was fine. 4th time was last year, as my health started getting worse, trying strangulation with a strap. I'm too fat for it to work properly lol. 5th time I tried overdosing on OTC meds and putting a bag over my head, but I just vomited blood and foam a few times, never fainted.