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How do you think the people you know irl would react to the fact that you’re suicidal?
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I wonder what my crush would think if he knew that I was suicidal or on this site. I had told him before that I'd rather die than work for a living though, and he said "don't do that, that's horrible"
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Rocinante, ctbcat, mtoro998 and 7 others
In the majority of cases not good because most people are against suicide no matter what. At least that is what I have encountered and is my overall observation. I made the mistake once of sharing with a friend all about my upcoming ctb etc. It was a major mistake and I won't ever do that again. It was fine talking with psychologists about it but got me nowhere, there was no point in it and was an overall waste of time for me. From here on out I just won't be talking to anyone about it.
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oohiniyorafaad, Praestat_Mori and sserafim
I used to think the worst response to this would be, "oh no! Don't do it! We love you and you have so much to live for! And *insert pro-life verbiage here*!"
But that isn't the worst response.
The worst response is indifference.
And I feel I might receive that from those around me. That... that would really hurt.
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oohiniyorafaad, Forever Sleep, ijustwishtodie and 2 others
I used to think the worst response to this would be, "oh no! Don't do it! We love you and you have so much to live for! And *insert pro-life verbiage here*!"
But that isn't the worst response.
The worst response is indifference.
And I feel I might receive that from those around me. That... that would really hurt.
I wonder what my crush would think if he knew that I was suicidal or on this site. I had told him before that I'd rather die than work for a living though, and he said "don't do that, that's horrible"
since i already attempted a couple of times i know what an emotional impact it has on my family (seeing my mom cry broke me). she told me if I successfully ctb she will khs as well ://
one of my closest friends who saved my life with his words and emotional support multiple times told me he would drop out of uni and pursue a social job. my other friends told me they wouldn't be able to live normally forever.
i rlly love and care about my friends but to me, my cats and mother are the only ones holding me back. if my mom would khs, which I know she would do after my death, that would mean my little brother (8 yrs old) wouldn't have a mom. Plus my 2 other siblings would lose their sister and mom.
before my first serious attempt that put me in intensive care and psych ward I believed everyone would be relieved if I were gone. I wish I would have died there. At least I wouldn't feel any regret to ctb.
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They will be nervous, I already spoke with my loved ones about my life, a told them that I do not want to live in this condition, but I think they have no idea about possibility of CTB.
They're reacting in the lame way one would expect where they want to do anything to stop it or throw out garbage prolife phrases though I guess it can't be helped.
I wonder what my crush would think if he knew that I was suicidal or on this site. I had told him before that I'd rather die than work for a living though, and he said "don't do that, that's horrible"
this is a question asked too many times, I wonder about my family's reaction and how'd it affect them. but I also wonder though not frequently how my irl friends would react to me being gone or finding out… it'd be a huge shock for them since I'm super charismatic and outgoing, I'd feel like crap if I found out somebody I've gone to parties with ctb's , however I'd understand, which I feel they wouldn't.
The only people I know in my life are my family and, if I told them, they'd verbally go crazy on me and repeatedly force me to listen to some pro life as well as religious bullshit... every single damn day. They would try to make me feel shitty for being suicidal by telling everybody they know about it and crying a lot. I'd basically be their prisoner as they wouldn't want me to kill myself and they would do a lot of cruel things to me to make sure I stay alive
I don't tell anyone irl how I feel, it makes me vulnerable in such way I hate. During quarantine my parents found my SN and I managed to come up with a plausible excuse to explain it wasn't what they were thinking. But a few days later we had a heated argument and
I impulsively ended up throwing everything away. I felt mentally violated that day.
The air was heavy for weeks. My dad would torment me even more. This reaction was expected.
Today we don't talk about the subject anymore and I pretend nothing happened.
I have a cousin, he seems to have these thoughts, but I don't tell him either . Although I have already brought up many topics for conversation such as antinatalism and nihilism. It's good to argue with the right person sometimes. Not the ignorant pro-lifers that make up the rest of my family.
They know. The few people I still talk to.
They tell me my life's not ruined, the worst is over, I'm so strong and brave, things will get better. My life is ruined, their world is the same. I know they'd be sad but, they didn't help me when they could have. Everyone just stands around and waits for the situation to fix itself. It's not their place etc.
It's like they refuse to actually see the situation from my perspective. I don't get it.
I won't even talk to my mom anymore because I have no more will to lie and pretend things are okay. I'm completely truthful with her about how I feel and it always devolves into an argument.
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oohiniyorafaad, divinemistress87, sserafim and 1 other person
I wonder what my crush would think if he knew that I was suicidal or on this site. I had told him before that I'd rather die than work for a living though, and he said "don't do that, that's horrible"
they'd definitely be tiptoeing me and monitoring me a lot more during convos. I don't make jokes about ctb often for this reason bc i don't wanna put the idea in their heads and have a chance of them figuring it out. I feel like i'd just become the equivalent of a baby in their eyes, as if i didn't have reasons to make the choice myself in the first place
I won't even talk to my mom anymore because I have no more will to lie and pretend things are okay. I'm completely truthful with her about how I feel and it always devolves into an argument.
that sucks man, having to deal with that on top of everything else. i will never understand why people think arguing is ever going to 'solve the problem' or make the situation better
I wonder what my crush would think if he knew that I was suicidal or on this site. I had told him before that I'd rather die than work for a living though, and he said "don't do that, that's horrible"
Judging from my own experience most people don't care. Most seem to tap dance around the facts and then act like you never mentioned it. It seems like they ignore the reality and hope you magically get better.
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