sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
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I wonder what my crush would think if he knew that I was suicidal or on this site. I had told him before that I'd rather die than work for a living though, and he said "don't do that, that's horrible"
 
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Valso

Valso

Student
Mar 12, 2024
126
No one's gonna miss me, if I succeed, that's for sure.
IDK how they'd react and IDC bc I won't tell them. They'll find out later.
 
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Passersby

Passersby

Trapped in space and time
Aug 29, 2019
1,641
In the majority of cases not good because most people are against suicide no matter what. At least that is what I have encountered and is my overall observation. I made the mistake once of sharing with a friend all about my upcoming ctb etc. It was a major mistake and I won't ever do that again. It was fine talking with psychologists about it but got me nowhere, there was no point in it and was an overall waste of time for me. From here on out I just won't be talking to anyone about it.
 
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Sleeper System

Sleeper System

Z z Z z Z z Z z Z z Z
May 5, 2022
766
CoughDaddakoCough. >_>

1. Shut the fuck up you're not suicidal. Just being a bitch. Man the fuck up. What's wrong with you?

2. Welcome to the club. It's called being an adult. Every 10 years you get a commerative pin.

3. Don't talk like that. That's not funny.

Conclusion: Without a genuine suicide attempt, disbelief.
 
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exiled

exiled

i gave so many signs
Jun 17, 2023
296
I used to think the worst response to this would be, "oh no! Don't do it! We love you and you have so much to live for! And *insert pro-life verbiage here*!"

But that isn't the worst response.
The worst response is indifference.

And I feel I might receive that from those around me. That... that would really hurt.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
I used to think the worst response to this would be, "oh no! Don't do it! We love you and you have so much to live for! And *insert pro-life verbiage here*!"

But that isn't the worst response.
The worst response is indifference.

And I feel I might receive that from those around me. That... that would really hurt.
I hope that my crush would still be sad and not indifferent. He stopped talking to me a while ago though…
 
picklemeow

picklemeow

I hate it all, just let me die
Jun 24, 2023
122
I wonder what my crush would think if he knew that I was suicidal or on this site. I had told him before that I'd rather die than work for a living though, and he said "don't do that, that's horrible"
everyone in my life knows, so none would be surprised I ctb
 
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broth0100

broth0100

i’m not in the tide i be under it, Jaws
Oct 23, 2023
147
Theyd freak out n try to have me committed
 
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TransientEternal

Student
Sep 24, 2023
142
Care for a bit then slowly get annoyed until they stop caring entirely. if I CTB tho they'll get sad that they "should've seen the signs".
 
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cantthinkofusername

cantthinkofusername

wannabe girl
Feb 25, 2024
114
depends on the person

a good mix of pity/disgust/indifference, probably

after people have their initial kneejerk reaction, nothing really changes

people dont care more or do more, they just silently judge you, and look down on you
 
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tbroken

tbroken

Wizard
Feb 22, 2024
689
I really dgaf, they put me in this situation. 😂
 
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slightoverlooked

slightoverlooked

Experienced
Dec 27, 2023
214
since i already attempted a couple of times i know what an emotional impact it has on my family (seeing my mom cry broke me). she told me if I successfully ctb she will khs as well ://
one of my closest friends who saved my life with his words and emotional support multiple times told me he would drop out of uni and pursue a social job. my other friends told me they wouldn't be able to live normally forever.
i rlly love and care about my friends but to me, my cats and mother are the only ones holding me back. if my mom would khs, which I know she would do after my death, that would mean my little brother (8 yrs old) wouldn't have a mom. Plus my 2 other siblings would lose their sister and mom.
before my first serious attempt that put me in intensive care and psych ward I believed everyone would be relieved if I were gone. I wish I would have died there. At least I wouldn't feel any regret to ctb.
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

The past never dies.
Apr 25, 2023
985
Nothing, they already know that I'm passive suicidal ( they don't know the truth about my active suicidality)
 
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strangelife

strangelife

Specialist
Feb 16, 2024
357
They will be nervous, I already spoke with my loved ones about my life, a told them that I do not want to live in this condition, but I think they have no idea about possibility of CTB.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,155
They're reacting in the lame way one would expect where they want to do anything to stop it or throw out garbage prolife phrases though I guess it can't be helped.
 
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Kurai

Kurai

Suffering
Jul 23, 2023
242
I don't think anyone will care
 
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helpls

Member
Mar 2, 2024
15
they already know lol and they dgaf
 
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loslassen

loslassen

call me jvne
Dec 8, 2023
162
I wonder what my crush would think if he knew that I was suicidal or on this site. I had told him before that I'd rather die than work for a living though, and he said "don't do that, that's horrible"
this is a question asked too many times, I wonder about my family's reaction and how'd it affect them. but I also wonder though not frequently how my irl friends would react to me being gone or finding out… it'd be a huge shock for them since I'm super charismatic and outgoing, I'd feel like crap if I found out somebody I've gone to parties with ctb's , however I'd understand, which I feel they wouldn't.
 
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Bianka

Bianka

No longer human
Jan 16, 2024
179
"If you kill yourself you kill me too. My life ends with you" -mom
And yes I obviously know that but still... idk why are you making me guilty?
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,183
The only people I know in my life are my family and, if I told them, they'd verbally go crazy on me and repeatedly force me to listen to some pro life as well as religious bullshit... every single damn day. They would try to make me feel shitty for being suicidal by telling everybody they know about it and crying a lot. I'd basically be their prisoner as they wouldn't want me to kill myself and they would do a lot of cruel things to me to make sure I stay alive
 
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Morte

Morte

Specialist
Nov 23, 2023
371
I don't tell anyone irl how I feel, it makes me vulnerable in such way I hate. During quarantine my parents found my SN and I managed to come up with a plausible excuse to explain it wasn't what they were thinking. But a few days later we had a heated argument and
I impulsively ended up throwing everything away. I felt mentally violated that day.
The air was heavy for weeks. My dad would torment me even more. This reaction was expected.
Today we don't talk about the subject anymore and I pretend nothing happened.

I have a cousin, he seems to have these thoughts, but I don't tell him either . Although I have already brought up many topics for conversation such as antinatalism and nihilism. It's good to argue with the right person sometimes. Not the ignorant pro-lifers that make up the rest of my family.
 
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Princess Picta

Member
Sep 22, 2023
19
They know. The few people I still talk to.
They tell me my life's not ruined, the worst is over, I'm so strong and brave, things will get better. My life is ruined, their world is the same. I know they'd be sad but, they didn't help me when they could have. Everyone just stands around and waits for the situation to fix itself. It's not their place etc.

It's like they refuse to actually see the situation from my perspective. I don't get it.

I won't even talk to my mom anymore because I have no more will to lie and pretend things are okay. I'm completely truthful with her about how I feel and it always devolves into an argument.
 
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melons0da

melons0da

Member
Mar 1, 2024
19
I wonder what my crush would think if he knew that I was suicidal or on this site. I had told him before that I'd rather die than work for a living though, and he said "don't do that, that's horrible"
they'd definitely be tiptoeing me and monitoring me a lot more during convos. I don't make jokes about ctb often for this reason bc i don't wanna put the idea in their heads and have a chance of them figuring it out. I feel like i'd just become the equivalent of a baby in their eyes, as if i didn't have reasons to make the choice myself in the first place
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,517
They'd probably suggest to see a doctor ^^
 
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melons0da

melons0da

Member
Mar 1, 2024
19
I won't even talk to my mom anymore because I have no more will to lie and pretend things are okay. I'm completely truthful with her about how I feel and it always devolves into an argument.
that sucks man, having to deal with that on top of everything else. i will never understand why people think arguing is ever going to 'solve the problem' or make the situation better
 
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Arachno

Arachno

oh no :(
Apr 10, 2023
248
They wouldn't be happy about it, it would probably shock them. I'm pretty worried about getting hospitalized if they find out.
 
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lostmind38

Member
Mar 1, 2024
46
They will freak out and:
  • tell me to go to see my GP
  • tell me to call the Samaritans
  • get me sectioned
  • tell me to exercise, go for walks, try yoga, try some miracle herb
  • tell me how much I have to live for and that things will get better
  • completely dismiss it as a joke
  • get drunk with me( the best option out of the above)
 
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RemainingDubious

RemainingDubious

All of these lies are not worth fighting for
Feb 18, 2024
374
I wonder what my crush would think if he knew that I was suicidal or on this site. I had told him before that I'd rather die than work for a living though, and he said "don't do that, that's horrible"
Judging from my own experience most people don't care. Most seem to tap dance around the facts and then act like you never mentioned it. It seems like they ignore the reality and hope you magically get better.
 
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unabletocope

I'd like to shut down
Mar 13, 2024
728
I am known as suicidal
 
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