How do you think the people you know irl would react to the fact that you’re suicidal?

[bipbapbop]

they'd definitely be tiptoeing me and monitoring me a lot more during convos. I don't make jokes about ctb often for this reason bc i don't wanna put the idea in their heads and have a chance of them figuring it out. I feel like i'd just become the equivalent of a baby in their eyes, as if i didn't have reasons to make the choice myself in the first place

I also stopped joking about CTB for this reason. Also, once I realized it was really going to happen, it made the jokes a lot less funny to me.

 

[mtoro998]

CoughDaddakoCough. >_>

1. Shut the fuck up you're not suicidal. Just being a bitch. Man the fuck up. What's wrong with you?

2. Welcome to the club. It's called being an adult. Every 10 years you get a commerative pin.

3. Don't talk like that. That's not funny.

Conclusion: Without a genuine suicide attempt, disbelief.

Some variation of this.

 

[divinemistress36]

My parents have heard me talk about it a lot over the years they are now desentized by it and don't think I will

 

[Malaria]

Everyone who knows me knows I struggle with suicidal ideation. They're not happy about it, but I think they at least know this is chronic for me. I think all of them are concerned at least on some level, but I've attempted so many times, I wonder if they've gotten desensitized to my ideation.

 

[ctbcat]

they know i'm suicidal, i don't think i do a good job at hiding it... constant jokes about 'ah if this happens i'll kill myself...' etc. they don't know i have a real intent to die, though.

if they knew i had intent... i think i just imagine each one policing me, you know? i'd be hardpressed to find one of them be as laissez-faire as i would be for the inverse. that's why i have to stay... relatively normal about things. i don't blame them for it, but it's just one of those things where i accept i have to act a certain way if i want the most optimal social conditions to commit suicide. i'd love to actually get the chance to say BYE, to these people. but the second i'd get too sappy or something, i'd imagine it'd be a situation of immediate welfare check lol

 

[theboy]

They would honestly not mind. they would forget about it after the conversation was over.

 

[BlendedHeart]

Some of them already know. They stopped talking to me. Guess that "reaching out" stuff is just a myth, or they never cared about me.

 

[hiddenbpd]

Like some others have said, they'd care initially because of the shock value, but with the amount I am suicidal it will get old fast and not be taken seriously anymore. Until I get the courage to go through with it that is.

 

[bipbapbop]

I've been thinking about this thread for a few days now and I think most of the responses that downplay the pain we are going through might be a result of how normalized talking about death and dying is in our current society. I feel like every time I go on social media, people are saying things like "that makes me wanna die" "dead" "kms" etc. It might be that when we talk about it, people are drawing from those types of conversations which are clearly all said in jest.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Overall? It will not have too much of a serious effect. I have hardly anyone who I hold a personal connection with, and the only people who I see regularly are acquaintances at best - this is how I actually prefer it. There are only 3 other people I know who will genuinely be upset, but they are random ordinary people - or "nobodies" - just like me, so their sadness and grief will not spread. Besides the 3 people mentioned no one else in the local area and beyond will care, because I am a stranger to almost everyone. It is doubtful that anybody will even find out about my suicide if and when it happens, and if they do it will only be due to it being brought up in an idle conversation in the street before they forget about i. My presence has not made a lasting impact, so neither will my passing.