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Ghostlights

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Mar 21, 2026
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In 2024, I lost my best friend to suicide. I'm happy to have found some other friends since his passing, but I still miss him every day. I have a hard time dealing with his death, especially because I knew that he was suicidal and didn't manage to make him feel like it is worth staying. So any tips from someone, who is in a similar situation and has found something that helps them deal with the death of a loved one, would be appreciated.
 
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HeyBoogahJr

HeyBoogahJr

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Apr 25, 2026
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I'm really sorry you lost your best friend. That kind of loss can stay with you for a long time. It sounds like you cared deeply about him.

I think it makes sense that you're still grieving and missing him, those feelings don't just disappear, and they don't have to. At the same time, the fact that you've found new friends says something important about your ability to connect and keep going, even after something so painful.

About what happened. Wanting to help someone and not being able to is a really heavy thing to carry. But one person can't be responsible for another person's choice, especially with something as complex as that. You were his friend, not the sole thing holding him here.

If anything, continuing to build connections and be there for others now is a meaningful way of honoring what mattered in that friendship.

If you want to talk more about him or what you've been going through, I'm here. :)
 

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