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Moroze

Defect
Aug 9, 2023
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I'm 22 years old and my cervical spine detected an abnormality. My pain medication is not helping me. Every day I feel extreme fatigue, nausea, body pain and migraines. I have to go with SN. It's the only method accessible to me. Just the thought of getting sick in my final moments is deliberating. I already feel sick every single day, but I know I have no choice. The healthcare system in Ireland is failing me and I can't day have a single day without pain. It's only going to get worse. I have no money for treatments. I am out of options. I just want a single day without pain.
 
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Jun 11, 2025
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Hello,


first of all sorry that your illness has brought you to this point.
I truly do feel extremely similarly to the description you've posted here.

I am not professional person so my apologies if my advice isn't of high value.

What helps me is heavy distraction. It definitely has me extremely drained by the end of day but at least that tiredness puts me to sleep. It's not for everyone and I don't recommend possibly overdoing yourself to anyone, not even myself, but it's the only thing that helped me personally. To be very, very distracted, all the time. Ignorance is bliss they say...

I hope you eventually find your peace one day, alive or not. None of us asked for any of this. I hope my words can mean anything to you even if I really don't have a lot to say.

Take care fellow user.


Regards
 
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May 10, 2025
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we are in the same boat
it is also my reason for ctb
 
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