My life has become completely obliterated over the past few years, all because I developed severe ME/CFS after a covid infection in 2020. I was in the prime of my life before I became ill - thriving in my career, happily married, engaged in hobbies like weightlifting, traveled to beautiful places, and lived a life of comfort and privilege that I did not appreciate. I lost it all - my asshole husband decided to abandon me a year into our marriage because I was "useless." I had to stop working because I was mostly bedbound, having debilitating chronic pain and flu-like symptoms. Gave up all hobbies because they would trigger flare-ups. Look up Physics Girl on Youtube if you want an example of how much covid can fuck you up - she was bedridden for 2 years and couldn't even use the bathroom on her own. I'm not quite as sick as she was at her worst, but not far off. I can't live independently and am now dependnet on my elderly mother for support.
I have a fairly large amount of immediate release Dilaudid tablets, Ativan, and a small amount (30 tablets of Soma 350 mg).
I would like to know the precise dosing of these medications, in combination (or using Dilaudid alone) that would 100% end my life. I'd prefer to not suffer too much in the end but I've been in pain and misery for so long, I'll put up with some discomfort to get out of my current situation. I also have Zofran as I've heard vomiting is a problem, but I'm not sure if this is strong enough.
I've tried virtually all of the treatments I've come across for years and years. I even did a 9-month long clinical trial receiving heavy-duty IV immunotherapy (that made me very sick) and that didn't help either. I'm not optimistic about the pace of research or that there will even be a single treatment that comes to market in the next 10 years. Hell, even in my life time.
Thank you all for your help.
I have a fairly large amount of immediate release Dilaudid tablets, Ativan, and a small amount (30 tablets of Soma 350 mg).
I would like to know the precise dosing of these medications, in combination (or using Dilaudid alone) that would 100% end my life. I'd prefer to not suffer too much in the end but I've been in pain and misery for so long, I'll put up with some discomfort to get out of my current situation. I also have Zofran as I've heard vomiting is a problem, but I'm not sure if this is strong enough.
I've tried virtually all of the treatments I've come across for years and years. I even did a 9-month long clinical trial receiving heavy-duty IV immunotherapy (that made me very sick) and that didn't help either. I'm not optimistic about the pace of research or that there will even be a single treatment that comes to market in the next 10 years. Hell, even in my life time.
Thank you all for your help.
