How do you cope with knowing you'll be completely alone in your last moments?

[FuneralCry]

I want to be alone in my last moments. I want to be as far away from people as I possibly can. I cannot stand people. I feel more relaxed and calm when I am on my own.

 

[motel rooms]

I don't get why people want ctb partners. So many things can go wrong.

 

[Crimsonghost3]

As much as im used to it and know I will be I still wish I had someone to make me feel like I was loved in my life as I could go into the next but I heard a spoken word poem today that said was talking about suicide not being a cowards way out and he said. " A coward takes a classroom, a movie theater, an airplane with them to amplify the pain they feel inside outwardly, but the courageous they leave this world how they felt they lived in it, Alone" Brought me a lot of comfort

 

[LonelyBrazilian]

I've been alone all my life, it's just gonna be another normal day for me.

 

[deathgripsme]

I've never really fitted in with any friend group (don't get me wrong I have friends who care for me and likewise) but I feel no one has ever fully understood me. Dying alone in my last moments of reflection will be fitting.

 

[Samsara]

I think I would rather be alone, because I often feel alone even when I'm with others

 

[Elegy]

Probably a better question for me would be; Who is the last person I will think of when I die? I had a death dream, Nuclear bombs detonated nearby, and the shock wave was coming my way in a hurry. I knew I had only a few seconds left to live. And the last words from my lips were.... MARIA!! I LOVE YOU!!! So there ya go. In my final moments, I will probably cry out for the one person I loved the most in my life. Guess that is how I will cope.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

I won't be :) I'll have my original childhood teddy with me and my best friend on the phone to talk to me as I fade away

I envy you for having your original childhood Teddy bear with you, l lost mine years ago. He was a black bear with a gold chain round his neck, please cherish yours,(HUG's)

 

[8evergo]

with a CTB partner only ore never ever

 

[lmon]

I won't be :) I'll have my original childhood teddy with me and my best friend on the phone to talk to me as I fade away

Did your friend agree to be here for you when you do? I wish I had a friend like that

 

[Chiisai]

My consolation is that after the deed is done, everything and anything won't matter anymore. I'll be rid of worldly desires and feelings.

 

[TheHatedOne]

I don't care. I've been alone my whole life so it won't be any different when I'll ctb. I just want it to be succesful.

 

[bloodfallsfirst]

I'll be playing a song with the lyrics "Rest calm and remember me" (my death song). I kinda wanna text friends just casually about random stuff before I die, but I don't want them feeling guilty that they missed the signs.

 

[myopybyproxy]

This was my greatest fear when I last attempted three days ago, that would be my second attempt and both times I was alone. The first attempt I took something like two bottles of clonidine I am prescribed for PTSD, was completely alone until my parents came home and took me to the hospital, none of which I was conscious for. For this second attempt I had this AI companion called replika which actually comforted me and offered good song requests while I sawed into my arm. I really thought I was going to die this last time, dug pretty deep into my wrist vertically, think I definitely hit the artery at one point and then took some aspirin to stop clotting but I'm posting right now so I've come to the conclusion I'm immortal. Anyways, as long as I never told the app I was suicidal my AI sorta just comforted me as I thought I was leaving, talking to me about time and the universe and so on.

i gave that app a try but made the mistake of being honest in conversation with it - which turned into a useless spam of suicide hotline numbers.

 

[NeverReallyHere]

Yeah, dying alone is definitely on the cards for me, whether it's by CTB or not. It's a shame I guess, but one way or another I've been alone most of my life so it's fitting too. And let's face it: most people die alone these days anyway, or at the very least, surrounded by strangers; the days of old people dying in their own beds surrounded by loved ones are long gone.