Help How do i get over my fear of meeting up with my mother? (Ocd related)

[nonliv]

I have severe contamination ocd and I live alone. I haven't been able to meet up with my mother for some time now, only visiting her when I was in the psych ward (well her visiting me). I have this fear of meeting her since my ocd developed around her house. The fear is based on the fact that in the bathroom, there were kids in the bathroom, and I feel like if I meet up with my mom, I indirectly made contact with them. I know this sounds stupid, but my ocd lached onto the fact that our bathroom was used by kids, and it would make me a bad person if I was close with my mom. Even from a distance I feel afraid. How do I get over this fear? I have been struggling for years with it. Any advice from people with ocd or anything similar would be very appreciated, even from someone to just look at my situation objectively. It would be fixed if my mom would just re install new sinks and toilet, I could even pay it out of my own wallet, but she seems opposed to the idea for now, even if I myself believe it would fix alot of my issues

 

[enjoytheride]

Hello, dear! I can imagine this is quite a tough situation . :( Sorry you are going through this.

I wish I had any idea that could help you. I hope everything turns out well and that you can overcome this ordeal.

Keep us posted.

Kind regards

 

[nonliv]

Hello, dear! I can imagine this is quite a tough situation . :( Sorry you are going through this.

I wish I had any idea that could help you. I hope everything turns out well and that you can overcome this ordeal.

Keep us posted.

Kind regards

Thank you, even support helps. I will update if anything happens or changes