Help How can I bring myself to jump off a balcony?

[Jona]

How can I bring myself to jump off a high-rise balcony?



I'm afraid that if I step out onto the balcony and hold onto the railing, I won't have the courage to let go.





Should I sit on the railing and put my hands in my pants pockets? Then rock back and forth from side to side in the direction of the fall?



Or should I sit on the railing facing the apartment and bring a dumbbell attached to a rope, then let it fall and let the fall pull me down into the depths?

 

[Aren]

How can I bring myself to jump off a high-rise balcony?



I'm afraid that if I step out onto the balcony and hold onto the railing, I won't have the courage to let go.





Should I sit on the railing and put my hands in my pants pockets? Then rock back and forth from side to side in the direction of the fall?



Or should I sit on the railing facing the apartment and bring a dumbbell attached to a rope, then let it fall and let the fall pull me down into the depths?

I tried waiting at the ledge for the right moment, but for me in my experience i was always thinking. SI is strong in front of the void. I personnaly prefer to think before and then count on impulsivity because jump is the only escape possible and then do it. I think it depends of the person.
Your idea to go side to side or with the rope is interesting.
But you know for jumping the real number one question is : is it enought hight?

Knowing that, is for me positive and negative. It helps to know that it will work but it's facing death without doubt.

 

[Jona]

I tried waiting at the ledge for the right moment, but for me in my experience i was always thinking. SI is strong in front of the void. I personnaly prefer to think before and then count on impulsivity because jump is the only escape possible and then do it. I think it depends of the person.
Your idea to go side to side or with the rope is interesting.
But you know for jumping the real number one question is : is it enought hight?

Knowing that, is for me positive and negative. It helps to know that it will work but it's facing death without doubt.

Thanks

 

[monkeyfff]

I always thought that I might convince myself to jump if I felt some form of "protection" or "comfort" like a blanket covering me. It might also help with obscuring your vision so you don't get scared from the height of which you are jumping from. I don't know, maybe this is a low IQ idea like most of my ideas.

 

[Aflame5926]

if SI is to strong then dont do it man.

also dont give advice because that is encourage people.
you need come on your own terms if this is really the way you want to go.

your descision your life. it starts with you and it ends with you

 

[Jona]

Thanks for the reply. I don't think it was a bad idea to block the view. I've also thought that it would be better to look up so you don't see the depth.

I always thought that I might convince myself to jump if I felt some form of "protection" or "comfort" like a blanket covering me. It might also help with obscuring your vision so you don't get scared from the height of which you are jumping from. I don't know, maybe this is a low IQ idea like most of my ideas.

 

[LongJacks]

I always thought that I might convince myself to jump if I felt some form of "protection" or "comfort" like a blanket covering me. It might also help with obscuring your vision so you don't get scared from the height of which you are jumping from. I don't know, maybe this is a low IQ idea like most of my ideas.

It's actually a great idea to block your view I would have done it myself if I ever jumped

Also adding wireless earbuds to listen to one last song as a bonus

 

[Disabledfromjump7]

How can I bring myself to jump off a high-rise balcony?



I'm afraid that if I step out onto the balcony and hold onto the railing, I won't have the courage to let go.





Should I sit on the railing and put my hands in my pants pockets? Then rock back and forth from side to side in the direction of the fall?



Or should I sit on the railing facing the apartment and bring a dumbbell attached to a rope, then let it fall and let the fall pull me down into the depths?

I jumped off an overpass in July of 2023 and my profile pic is my spine and pelvis now. I am very disabled and can barely walk. I don't suggest falling.
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Thanks

I did around 100 ft and was in psychosis and I live disabled and miserable now. I don't suggest jumping.

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

No balcony will ever be ever be high enough. You need a drop of like 100 meters I think. There was an exact number somewhere on this forum.

jumped off an overpass in July of 2023 and my profile pic is my spine and pelvis now. I am very disabled and can barely walk. I don't suggest falling.

That's horrible. So sorry this happened to you. May I ask you something about it, or is it too insensitive/traumatizing? You don't have to reply.

 

[Disabledfromjump7]

Ask me anything.

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

Ask me anything.

Thank you. What did you feel while falling? And during the impact? How long where you just laying there until an ambulance arrived?

 

[Disabledfromjump7]

Thank you. What did you feel while falling? And during the impact? How long where you just laying there until an ambulance arrived?

I looked down…. I closed my eyes stepped forward and felt nothing falling down. I didn't even get the feeling I have had on a roller coaster. Nothing… it went black.

The ambulance arrived and I was talking and moving my hands per reports in my medical chart. I remember putting my hands in a heart shape and laying down to mentally black out again in the ambulance.

I don't remember them retrieving me or getting to me in a hard to reach angle. The ambulance arrived within an hour as I jumped on a busy overpass.

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

Interesting. Thanks for sharing. The mind really finds ways to shut out these horrible moments, huh?

I hope you find some sense of closure and that fate is kind to you moving forward. I can't imagine what you're going through. Hugs <3

 

[Disabledfromjump7]

I looked down…. I closed my eyes stepped forward and felt nothing falling down. I didn't even get the feeling I have had on a roller coaster. Nothing… it went black.

The ambulance arrived and I was talking and moving my hands per reports in my medical chart. I remember putting my hands in a heart shape and laying down to mentally black out again in the ambulance.

I don't remember them retrieving me or getting to me in a hard to reach angle. The ambulance arrived within an hour as I jumped on a busy overpas

Interesting. Thanks for sharing. The mind really finds ways to shut out these horrible moments, huh?

I hope you find some sense of closure and that fate is kind to you moving forward. I can't imagine what you're going through. Hugs <3

Yes. I did not have any pain and when I went to the hospital they put me on hardcore drugs so I didn't really remember any pain.

I punctured my lungs, broke my pelvis, ripped my pelvis from my spine, busted my bladder and cracked some spinal areas on L4 L5.

I am barely recognizable as the same person. I did die that day I just didn't die.
It's a mess.