how are you doing right now?

[fallintotheshadows]

The more I have realizations about the world or people or imperfections that cause us to be unhappy makes me not want to live in this world that much more. I agree with the first noble truth which is from Buddhism which basically is existence is pain

 

[Meteora]

Exhausted, sad, anxious, disappointed....

 

[user933957]

im feeling anxious at the moment (as per usual), though today and yesterday have been relatively better than the last week or so. i'd consider it an accomplishment that i haven't cried in 3 days.

my parents are out of town rn so i've been home alone, but im actually excited for them to be back. surprisingly, the house feels extremely empty and lonely without them here.

hm, I've been feeling worse lately but I've somehow found comfort in that. I've gotten very anxious too, crowds and people suck

 

[Meteora]

I feel very low. I feel like I should have died long before. But I m sitll here, incapable of ending my life. But my state of mind is extreme and my suffering is unbearable. What else can I do but bear it? Yes, kill myself. Thats not so easy though

 

[Kit1]

I have this urge to just end my life - I cannot take the pain and all the trauma related crap and now knowing that I have lost the support of the NHS clinical psychologist was working with me and not being able to afford private lin term therapy sessions, my days are numbered. However I have two people who I am responsible for and who I love dearly and I need to keep myself alive for them - there is also a rage that I need to fight back as I don't want them impacted by my passing. I suspect that I will end up ending my life as I cannot really stop myself from drowning when I don't know how to swim, I cannot pour a bucket of water to put out the fire that is taking over the building, cannot breathe when my lungs are collapsing - and somehow living every moment feels like exactly like this. Perhaps my death might bring some posiitive change to how the NHS supports the vulnerable - can be suicidal and still dream, I guess.

 

[kawaiiphantom]

Miserable and like nobody i love cares about me much anymore. Everything is grey and colorless and i can barely function as a human, its hard to keep going

 

[Hunter2005]

Anxious and thinking about death is the only thing that brings me peace.

 

[diviosd]

Uncomfortable