how are you all doing

[London2005]

I am trying to feel comfortable but everything is overwhelming, however I am pushing forward

 

[CaoineadhcuChulainn]

Did you ever get over the guilt? What were those thoughts like?

There were many thoughts and a thousand 'what ifs' and 'what only's' as the horror, grief, and the adrenaline took over my mind and body for months afterwards. In reality, I'm not sure what more I could have done as he had organised everything down to the last detail. My thoughts now are mostly of sadness as time tends to accentuate his loss, his absence from my life. I simply go on loving him, go on missing him.

 

[zizzou]

There were many thoughts and a thousand 'what ifs' and 'what only's' as the horror, grief, and the adrenaline took over my mind and body for months afterwards. In reality, I'm not sure what more I could have done as he had organised everything down to the last detail. My thoughts now are mostly of sadness as time tends to accentuate his loss, his absence from my life. I simply go on loving him, go on missing him.

Why are you still here? Did you find new meaning and purpose? Sorry, I'm just going through something similar.

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

I'm worried about the future. Can't make myself do the things I need to do.

 

[CaoineadhcuChulainn]

Why are you still here? Did you find new meaning and purpose? Sorry, I'm just going through something similar.

There have been many times when I felt like taking my own life, as the grief I felt over losing my son was devastating and so totally consuming. Somehow, one day followed another, as one sleepless night folllowed another, and I'm still here, and I hope you are too.

 

[14xblueberry]

For the last 3 weeks or so, I've had some incredible spiritual and mental/emotional growth. A long-standing mental formation has crumbled and fallen away, and with it, my inner child screamed and raged in me for about a week. Since then, I've been in a heat so desperate and intense that, along with the mood swings, make me feel like I'm going through puberty again, or like I'm experiencing menopause despite being a man. I believe in God, so it's kinda like in Hebrews 12:27 where God is shaking things inside me to reveal what doesn't shake. My confidence is blooming in a real way, and I feel plugged into my body for the first time in my life.

 

[thegreatminderaser]

not good, but my basic needs are met. i hope you're well

 

[EmptyBottle]

Tks, I'm doing well, caught up on SaSu notifications more or less.