how are you all doing

[London2005]

I am trying to feel comfortable but everything is overwhelming, however I am pushing forward

 

[CaoineadhcuChulainn]

Did you ever get over the guilt? What were those thoughts like?

There were many thoughts and a thousand 'what ifs' and 'what only's' as the horror, grief, and the adrenaline took over my mind and body for months afterwards. In reality, I'm not sure what more I could have done as he had organised everything down to the last detail. My thoughts now are mostly of sadness as time tends to accentuate his loss, his absence from my life. I simply go on loving him, go on missing him.

 

[zizzou]

There were many thoughts and a thousand 'what ifs' and 'what only's' as the horror, grief, and the adrenaline took over my mind and body for months afterwards. In reality, I'm not sure what more I could have done as he had organised everything down to the last detail. My thoughts now are mostly of sadness as time tends to accentuate his loss, his absence from my life. I simply go on loving him, go on missing him.

Why are you still here? Did you find new meaning and purpose? Sorry, I'm just going through something similar.

 

[Black_Knight]

I'm worried about the future. Can't make myself do the things I need to do.