horrible news: summer already ruined

[glowing.purple.aura]

I just found out that the vacation I've been anticipating for the past few months (after not going on one for 10 years) is no longer happening—no longer happening for me, that is. The rest of my family is still going of course.

The reason my mom gave me is that I'm just "too mentally ill at the moment" and "way too much of a risk to have in another country."

Right... so it makes perfect sense to cancel the one thing that could possibly help me right now. I know damn well this decision was made solely on the fact that no one in my family likes me and they never wanted me there in the first place. Why would they ever make a decision with my best interest in mind???!

...

So yeah, just like that my number of reasons to live is back at 0. I'm honestly a bit disappointed in myself for not predicting this would happen. When has literally anything (already planned or not) worked out for me in the past few years?!

 

[whywere]

I am so sorry for you, and I hate to say this, but your "parents" ARE crappy, narrow-minded folks period.

I had extremely the worst "parents" and reading your situation brought back such horrible memories and I feel so darn horrible for you, as NO ONE should EVER have to put up with such ignorance ever.

It is like when I tell someone that I have mental health issues and they curl their lip up and roll their eyes AT ME. UNTIL I tell them that it is inherited like type 1 diabetes and other inherited diseases.

Then the low watt bulb goes off in their head and they go "oh!" It is like having to spoon feed a baby, but these ARE supposed to be adults, like right!

I hope with all my heart and soul that your "parents" can overcome their ignorance and see just how much a holiday will help you. They NEED a HUGE EDUCATION on mental health period.

Lots of huge hugs, and with me being 70, tell your folks that an "older" person said that you NEED to go and unwind, enjoy and regroup, NOT be shackled and left behind ever.

Walter