Holidays are Brutal

[knickknack81]

Hey everybody.

So in the US, this weekend is labor day and its kind of the end of the Summer, last big vacation moment for a lot of familes as kids get ready to go back to school (if it hasnt started already) and families usually get away for the 3 day weekend. For the last year in which I have been struggling with really bad depression and thoughts of CTB, these holidays are the absolute worst. As I am so isolated, everybody around me goes away for these long weekends and things are super quiet. These are the times that are tough and my dark thoughts really sneak up on me. Its almost like i prefer the mundane everydays when everything seems normal and people are around and life is going on in its "normal" way. But I just really struggle during these quiet, alone times. It feels like after this, we wont have one quite like it until Thanksgiving. So im just hoping that this one will pass by okay. Maybe I will find something that will occupy my time and keep my mind busy. Because right now, I'm really struggling.

Does anyone else feel the same way about the holidays?

Thanks!

 

[freedompass]

Yes, I feel just the same as you. Here in the U.K. they're called bank holidays but to me it's just an extra Sunday that I most definitely don't need as I don't work and live alone. All around I see friends, families, partners and togetherness. It's painful.

 

[knickknack81]

Tot

Yes, I feel just the same as you. Here in the U.K. they're called bank holidays but to me it's just an extra Sunday that I most definitely don't need as I don't work and live alone. All around I see friends, families, partners and togetherness. It's painful.

Totally. And nothing against those people enjoying the day. I totally understand it. Its just difficult to see when I feel im in such a difficult, painful place in my life.

 

[outrider567]

Hey everybody.

So in the US, this weekend is labor day and its kind of the end of the Summer, last big vacation moment for a lot of familes as kids get ready to go back to school (if it hasnt started already) and families usually get away for the 3 day weekend. For the last year in which I have been struggling with really bad depression and thoughts of CTB, these holidays are the absolute worst. As I am so isolated, everybody around me goes away for these long weekends and things are super quiet. These are the times that are tough and my dark thoughts really sneak up on me. Its almost like i prefer the mundane everydays when everything seems normal and people are around and life is going on in its "normal" way. But I just really struggle during these quiet, alone times. It feels like after this, we wont have one quite like it until Thanksgiving. So im just hoping that this one will pass by okay. Maybe I will find something that will occupy my time and keep my mind busy. Because right now, I'm really struggling.

Does anyone else feel the same way about the holidays?

Thanks!

Christmas, Thanksgiving, New Years are holidays that don't exist to me anymore

 

[knickknack81]

Christmas, Thanksgiving, New Years are holidays that don't exist to me anymore

I see where you are coming from. I will probably be in that boat this upcoming year. We shall see.

 

[MyShadow]

I live in a beach town that I can hardly afford to live in, so I am forced to watch people come here during the summer months to enjoy themselves while I work to serve them. Things used to be different, then outsiders and investment firms started buying up the houses here and drove up the cost to rent or own a home here. The same applies to every single town here, even far inland. Now, as the economy falls and the greed gets more rampant, it's even harder to live here. What used to be an affordable little town has become a place that only the wealthy can afford.

As for holidays like Thanksgiving and Christmas, they're awful too. Since my family has pretty much pushed me away, I will spend those holidays alone.

So yeah, the holidays suck.