Since a child I have been suffering and going through torture I cant take it more I really cant ig one could say am a failure but I need help please I hope someone here can help me out
About me - I cant share a lot but just a little
-- I was born with cancer and hence my childhood went into hospitals
then even from a small age - I have had abusive parents extremely , I have like - fingers, hands, legs , broken multiple times by them, even back of my head at time, or my neck being snapped almost
Been sexually assulted as well when I was still a teen by a stranger -theres a lot but I cant say cuz too long sorry
theres just constant everyday thing, even at 7-9yr old I have prayed every night and begged god to do something or to help but everyday things have just gotten even worse, For years now my mental limit has been far crossed it even affects my body now - I have panic attack at times / chest heavy, cant breathe well, feeling like to throw up at random moments (not much but is there) and etc
I couldnt life my live at peace now It feels like I cant even die In peace.
Please if anyone can help me out please man just bare with me, my entire life been hell, at this point idk if God even exist or not but I just wanna rest i just want to rest i dont want to think anymore dont want to breathe dont want more pain more torture , like even just thinking i can feel my brain move a bit and so.
I have been looking into painless death or so and well I am In Japan so its hard to get those specific dose/ meds .
Currently I have been looking for helium method but again its so hard am so confused I need someone if anyone can help me, I have so many questions n such .
I will share my discord Id = drew_090
If anyone can then please help me out. i will wait for the responses
Like if u know any aviable easy access painless death or something or if can asnwer the helium method questions please do response
About me - I cant share a lot but just a little
-- I was born with cancer and hence my childhood went into hospitals
then even from a small age - I have had abusive parents extremely , I have like - fingers, hands, legs , broken multiple times by them, even back of my head at time, or my neck being snapped almost
Been sexually assulted as well when I was still a teen by a stranger -theres a lot but I cant say cuz too long sorry
theres just constant everyday thing, even at 7-9yr old I have prayed every night and begged god to do something or to help but everyday things have just gotten even worse, For years now my mental limit has been far crossed it even affects my body now - I have panic attack at times / chest heavy, cant breathe well, feeling like to throw up at random moments (not much but is there) and etc
I couldnt life my live at peace now It feels like I cant even die In peace.
Please if anyone can help me out please man just bare with me, my entire life been hell, at this point idk if God even exist or not but I just wanna rest i just want to rest i dont want to think anymore dont want to breathe dont want more pain more torture , like even just thinking i can feel my brain move a bit and so.
I have been looking into painless death or so and well I am In Japan so its hard to get those specific dose/ meds .
Currently I have been looking for helium method but again its so hard am so confused I need someone if anyone can help me, I have so many questions n such .
I will share my discord Id = drew_090
If anyone can then please help me out. i will wait for the responses
Like if u know any aviable easy access painless death or something or if can asnwer the helium method questions please do response
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