That is weird . Can youe explain that?
I cannot, I remember taking the xanax and phenobarb(edit: same time), then being slapped on the face in an ambulance, then being shouted at and slapped again in a hospital "Don't fall asleep" they were saying, I said I wanted to sleep they said no. Next moment I remember is a nurse asking how I was feeling, I said my head hurt, she said yeah I bet (I'm parapharasing), I asked why and she indicted that I had done 'something'. I asked where the injuries came from and she said I kept trying to escape and put on the 3rd of the 3 alerts. 1 being "not likely to escape" and 3 being "very likely to escape". She moved me down to 2 once I was able to talk coherently then I learnt it wasn't monday morning, but thursday.
I had very mixed feelings on waking. Mainly "What have I done", then "But I didn't even see how Naruto ends!" (bloody fillers). But peaceful yes 100%, I think if they hadn't been so insistent on saying "Stay awake" I might have drifted off, also there was no vomiting or discomfort, the headache only came on after I was sober. Maybe something in my mind decided it wasn't the right time?
Oh no worries I thought you just wanted clarification, this is an AMA after all!I read everything and really sorry about that. Including time took you to play guitar. I wasn't doubting btw, it just sounded so violent
Tolerance won't change that, you had some really bad bad reaction there.... very scary.
I don't know what to say. Reading your testimony makes me reconsider my method. I was planning to cbt with pheno. I thought that pheno was lethal.
Are you saying you remember an abscence of light and time ?
Definitely like sleeping with no dreams.
UK. Same here and no I have to buy illegally, I was cut-off when they changed the guidelines a few years ago. It sucks.
Thank you :). I will have a look at that thread, I'm interested in new ways that could follow the PPeH guides and are accessible as I also want 100% success, next time...
Thanks :)
When I woke up I started crying, not gonna lie but there have only been a few times in my life that have hit me as emotionally hard as that. Family was confused but not in the dark. I spent a few weeks chilling out then my thoughts went back to normal. I wish it had've worked, as much as I hate the pain I inflicted I think it would've been better to go then and not have people worrying until I eventually do. Plan is shaken and date thrown off due to recent circumstances but my mind is still set.
Yes the social consequences were the most long-lasting effects unfortunately. I would encourage you to share your experience! Lots of people want to know what near death experiences are like, especially emotions leading up to the event. All very good info to share I'd say!
You too friend. Hmm hard to say what better would be lol, I am still of the same mind and while the date and method may have changed my decision hasn't. I feel I would have inflicted less pain if it had been successful.
Couldn't have said it better myself. Like before being born, but then waking up with a full-life of memories. (if that makes any sense)
This is a very odd event, sorry this happened to you. Did it have any long-lasting ramifications?
It's all I have lol, no worries
50-100mg xanax (alprazolam) + 3.6grams of phenobarbital. A bad method. I had a stupidly made exit-bag (made up of 3 trash bags and several rubberbands). Plan was to take the stuff, hold the bag open as long as possible then pass out and ctb via asphyxia - but I forgot all about the bag after taking the gelatine caps. I think I wanted like 1 last drink or smoke or something stupid, then it kicked it far quicker than I thought
Do u say phenobarbital was too fast that u forgot using exit bag? My plan is using 15g phenobarbital and after feeling unconscious or a bit befor that using cyanide and exit bag
Bear in mind I also took 50-100mg xanax (alprazolam, a very fast acting benzo), so it could have been that.
I really need ur experience. but I cant send u private message. I've also alperazolam around 10mg. How phenobarbital can hamper the effects of other methods? I can wait to reach near unconscious with the glass of cyanide in my hand and exit bag on my head.
It's not a bad idea to get the job done, but 15g of pheno will put you on your ass faster than you can imagine, even with tolerance, so it could hamper your other ideas re cyanide + exit-bag, because you may lose motor funtion, you might pass out. I have no idea, but starting out @ 15g seems like a bad idea. Why not take 100mg and see if you can operate a small task, adding sugar to tea/coffee etc, learn how to do it and what would happen at different doses. Like see what you can do physically, can you put a mask on, can you take apill and not knock the glasses of water over in the process? I've no idea, but my suggestion is to test it
That's great if phenobarbital be as fast as what you say. I'm sure that I can use cyanide and exit bag after that
Thanks .I could not stand up or walk for a day . But there was no permanent damage
I don't know what drugs were involved, I do know that I was dead for a while before being CPR'd back, I think the lack of oxygen caused the nerve damage, I've had blackouts on benzos before for a day or 36 hours-ish but never had any issues other than basic bruises/cuts from falling over. I dunno how long I wasn't breathing for either
Debatable, but I wouldn't say on it's own no. (note this is phenobarbitol, not pentobarb (aka N))
I too was refering to pheno (the antiepileptic) not pento. How about combining it with benzos and F? I am asking only opinions on that, just because I am planning to use this combo. I see your attempt didn't work out. I do hope you feel better.
