notprettyenough
Not strong enough either
- Oct 19, 2023
- 18
I know drugs are not a successful method, and I will likely go for asphyxiation, I do think this other option would actually be possible for me but just painful as fuck
I have vyvanse (30×30) and dexedrine (90×5mg, and could easily collect more soon) as well as caffeine pills, and I could probably get my hands on cocaone or meth since I live in the drug haven that is Canada.
I also have been dealing with bulimia for 4 years, and it's been making it harder for me to run, I have less energy and my heart rate is super high already compared to what it used to be on easy and slow runs (180bpm when it used to be 150-140bpm)
I have done a marathon and many half marathons, this month my depressive thoughts told me there's no point finishing a race because quite frankly, I might not even finish this year, so I stopped at 22km.
Seeing my heart is not doing well, my resting heart rate is already higher from stress and stimualamt use along side YEARS if high caffeine intake. PLUS the running and bulimia, think I'm already at a great risk of a heart attack.
I could easily likely induce one while also making attempting another method, but ideally the heart attack would be a faster death than other ones at my availability. I already get chest pain on my left side of my chest when I get high from edibles.
I have vyvanse (30×30) and dexedrine (90×5mg, and could easily collect more soon) as well as caffeine pills, and I could probably get my hands on cocaone or meth since I live in the drug haven that is Canada.
I also have been dealing with bulimia for 4 years, and it's been making it harder for me to run, I have less energy and my heart rate is super high already compared to what it used to be on easy and slow runs (180bpm when it used to be 150-140bpm)
I have done a marathon and many half marathons, this month my depressive thoughts told me there's no point finishing a race because quite frankly, I might not even finish this year, so I stopped at 22km.
Seeing my heart is not doing well, my resting heart rate is already higher from stress and stimualamt use along side YEARS if high caffeine intake. PLUS the running and bulimia, think I'm already at a great risk of a heart attack.
I could easily likely induce one while also making attempting another method, but ideally the heart attack would be a faster death than other ones at my availability. I already get chest pain on my left side of my chest when I get high from edibles.
