Have you told any people you are suicidal?

[Retched]

When I was trying to get help I was screaming out for it to health care professionals. I know If I ever was to get through this it will only be with a hospital stay and the chance to start a fresh. But your told to just keep calm and carry on. Problem is my demons have finally outweighed my hope. For a while I was thinking about running away from my shit life and job in the hope that doctors would see how ill I am and section me but I'm passed that. Can't wait until my method is sorted and I can get off this shite planet

Seem like plenty of us have asked loudly for help and ultimately are sucked into a broken system and then just expected to keep calm and carry on, like you say. There's no real help it seems. I was 100% honest after my failed attempt and that got me nowhere. It's so frustrating. Suicidal people fall through the cracks. We aren't "acute" enough for most social services and the entire system is broken anyhow. Sorry if this is just rambling. I'm so tired of pretending everything's ok.

nothing but my own lack of will and strength.

I'm so using this answer if I'm ever asked.

 

[Broken]

Seem like plenty of us have asked loudly for help and ultimately are sucked into a broken system and then just expected to keep calm and carry on, like you say. There's no real help it seems. I was 100% honest after my failed attempt and that got me nowhere. It's so frustrating. Suicidal people fall through the cracks. We aren't "acute" enough for most social services and the entire system is broken anyhow. Sorry if this is just rambling. I'm so tired of pretending everything's ok.

I'm so using this answer if I'm ever asked.

No worries. i stopped pretending a while ago when I realised I can't get out of this mess. I still get scared about ctb but it's my only option over than enduring mental pain for what could be the rest of my life

 

[Tabbyql]

I told my bff wen i was drunk so he called the police, I ended up going to the er in the back of their car. One of the police men was so nice and I felt Maybe I should get some help. But I was kept waiting so long I was exhausted and just pretended I wasn't suicidal. My brother who was called by the police to come with me kept moaning about hating being there and it taking so long etc.. . I just felt a burden and guilty. My dad knows but he avoids the whole thing. My other brother and sister know, but everything is about them So naturally they don't give a f* if it's not about them. And I am of no use to them anymore so I am a piece of rubbish to be discarded. I told countless mental health professionals, but got either the it's just your illnesses talking, distract your self or your an adult now only you can help your self. Made me feel i was attention seeking or lying. And the worst is my partner he knows everything, hes even been put down as my carer on my care plans. Zero f** i apparently will be cured if i just go to work and distract my self and stop feeling sorry for my self. Once he realised he wouldn't get any money out of my illnesses, his mask dropped and he no longer pretended to care. I'm not surprised though, when I came home after disappearing all day after taking Od. He just left me to puke all night no ambulance, no empathy just angry at me for missing my shift at work. I ended up in hospital the next day, all he cared about was having to pay for the car park. I now don't tell him anything, and given up on ever getting any help. I'm not mad at my bff for calling the police, he's the 1st person who seems to actually care.

 

[Vegrau]

They dont care about it neither I care about their thoughts. I dont make friends because I know this day will come. I dont need the additional baggages and drama. But I did told everyone around me as a polite gesture. I know them too well that they will never do anything about it. They either think I am crazy or I wont do it. Which suit me just fine. As for family I broke off all contacts.

 

[uiop]

Yes, (aside from the hospital - big mistake btw. They just send you to the psychiatrist hospital, and say "Good luck.")

I told my brother, my best friend, and my psychiatrist that I was suicidal. They are trying their best to help me with the tools they have. My brother and I were never close (We're half brothers; he was never there for me me as a child), and telling him was one of the biggest regret I have. He does not deserve all of this. I could tell he didn't know how to handle the situation when he wanted to talk to my parents and my best friend. I told him that we have boundaries that he mustn't cross (telling my parents), and if he moves crosses, we're going to have a serious problem.

My best friend have been a lot helpful, although I can feel it is a bit difficult for her to relate to me. She lost a friend to suicide (before teenage age), and she is trying her very, I feel, to influence me on the right path. It's been going well so far, but I'm a bit of a manic, so everything is inconsistent. Hopefully she stays in my life, otherwise I'm afraid I'll go down the easy path, as I no longer have a support net.

 

[JadedGray]

When I was a kid/teenager I kept it to myself, my mom only found out because she was snooping in my room and reading my diary. She ended up having me committed in the psych ward that summer. When I did tell my parents later on after being in the psych ward for the first time, they would normally just say to do it already and stop bothering them, although they would later have me committed twice more as a teen during attempts. Now, when I talk about it they are more understanding and supportive. They wouldn't bother having me committed since they know it didn't help. They have come to accept that eventually I will do it and be successful.

 

[Apostle]

My one remaining friend (who I know through the internet) knows about it. But nobody I know irl, nor my long-distance girlfriend, are aware of it.
I won't tell them. Strictly because, if any of them find out, they'll tell everyone, do everything possible to ensure I don't die, and I will either lose the ability to ctb or they will make it infinitely harder. In my position, I only really get to choose between life and death if I keep this to myself.

 

[Pupuce]

I did. But it didn't change anything aside from the people i told becoming annoying with bullcrap like "it isn't so bad" or "it'll pain me y'know", sure i feel great thank you no need to be concerned. And also the famous "i want to help, but go see someone else for help cuz i can't".

 

[FreeFallin]

I've told several people including medical professional, psychologist as well as family members. I am fortunate the people I have told were understanding. I wasn't hospitalized or anything as I told them I didn't have a set plan.

My best friend of 30+ years was sad, said she wanted to help but that she understood she couldn't. She was actually supportive to a reluctant degree.

 

[Jolene40]

I guess it depends on the situation. Ive discussed openly and regularly my wish for my horrific suffering to end. My mum my brother and 2 close friends are the ones I've told. Everyone supports me and understands. Ive had reactions such as i don't blame you to i totally understand. That's how horrific my life is.
I understand that mental suffering is hell on earth but illicits much less sympathy or support because you just can't 'see it'.

 

[TheFinalCountdown]

I've threatened to kill myself to my family a couple of times but I wasn't taken seriously.

 

[tomz323]

I've threatened to kill myself to my family a couple of times but I wasn't taken seriously.

That's my situation

 

[TAW122]

During hard times, I have mentioned it to family, but never with serious intent like having a plan, but just passively talking about it. At best, my parents, especially my father brushes it off and mentioned that suicide is easy while living is difficult. I'd disagree with him, as to muster the courage and override SI requires tremendous courage to do so. I do know that if I am going to go through, I would not ever talk about it nor reveal any signs. Also, I haven't brought up the subject at all in the recent years because there is no point to debating suicide, not to mention the risk of being saved, rescued, intervened against my will.

 

[k3v3r]

yes, ended up in the psych ward...

 

[pole]

If so how did they react, I've only told my Brother and Parents. They didn't quite seem to comprehend what I was saying though. Thought about telling some people I use to work with to get their opinion. Anyone got experience with this?
Edit: Should have included in the title I meant irl

Told my best friend, who opened up to me that he also was suicidal after a break up. And he just cared and wanted to help cause he knew how it felt. I got lucky i guess lol.

 

[15dec]

Some people care and are genuinely understanding. Most people think I'm being manipulative, attention-seeking, psycho, dramatic, whatever.

 

[Vegrau]

Some people care and are genuinely understanding. Most people think I'm being manipulative, attention-seeking, psycho, dramatic, whatever.

At least you have genuine people that care. Which is good.

 

[TheBlackSwordsman]

I wish I had someone to talk to. Its unfortunate the responses many of us receive from others but I understand and try to empathize with them. Many of them cant really process what we're telling them. Most people are so afraid of death, they cant even fathom the idea of someone actually wanting to die. It is so opposite of what most people think human beings ought to feel. It's also in direct opposition of the bodies default survival programming. So, while it may be highly frustrating, i empathize with those who we tell. I get why they react the way they do. That said, it just presents more issues and makes people who feel the way we do even worse. I battle with the idea of telling my sister or brother but cant bring myself to do it. I've told 4 friends. 1 basically ignored it but not in a dismissive way. 1 gave me the whole "things will get better its not that bad" spiel, but he also added he would be devastated if I did it and I know hes being honest. One of his closes friends that I met killed himself several years ago and it really rocked my friend. I feel bad at the thought of him having 2 of his 5 closest friends both who are younger than him, dying by suicide. The other 2 friends I told do their best. They are very understanding but theres only so much they can do especially since I cant bring myself to share everything. I'm so ashamed of some of the things I have done and the thoughts/feelings I experience, that I dont know if I will ever be able to be completely honest with anyone.

 

[Felicità]

My former school doctor knew for medical purposes. I don't think my new therapist believes me. My parents knew it but they don't want to admit it (they saw scars on my wrist and we're called by my school once when I was a teen, but they just acted like nothing has happened). None of my friends knows, it's just that kind of topics we avoid here. There were times I felt someone was approachable and tried to bring it up, but they turned to be unreliable at the end. Though considering the speciality of the school I am at now, I'm pretty sure there are people with more serious problems than me. It's like a Disney world, everyone puts on their best costumes during the day while many things are simply "don't ask don't tell", for example stb.

 

[jellybelly4]

Honestly, just my boyfriend. He's the only person I trust with the information. If I told anyone else I'd be committed or they would probably tell me some puritanical bs that would make it worse. I might tell one more person but I honestly think telling a bunch of people makes it a hassle on multiple fronts. I don't need fake sympathy.

 

[Loli]

Few of my friends, my mother, retarded therapist and my psychiatrist. Excluding my psychiatrist I kind of regret sharing this with anyone but I guess I wanted a friendly shoulder to lean on. Depressive relapses are extremely frustrating so I'm not going to beat myself down because of it. Although it usually ended up being very awkward/even more depressing. Now, at last, I'm in peace with my mental state and dying so I will keep my mouth shut ^^

 

[ExitTheDay]

I only tell people I can really trust, because nowadays a lot of people like to think they know what is best for others, and the outcome would be me getting thrown in a mental hospital and I fucking hate those places

 

[21Neberg]

I have only told a few online friends and psychologists. I've read too much negativity about people telling their 'friends', so I won't do that. Though i don't have much of a choice - after isolating myself for so long I've got no friends left. People will only think of me again when they hear I'm dead, but it won't matter at all.

 

[Evident]

Never told anyone, told a couple people about my attempt to ctb a year ago but I would not want to tell people i'm suicidal while i'm suicidal, I would like to minimise the "I could've done something" mentality and not have anyone try and stop me if and when I try again.

 

[Lush_nova]

My husband knows and he knows when I get the chance I'm going to try again and there's not a damned thing he can do about it. His family knows which consists of 5 people other then that I try and keep my private life, well private bar this forum, but no here knows who I am, so it's all good

 

[Sailfisher]

"Straighten up and be happy right now!"

That was the reply.

 

[StillWaiting]

No one actually care enough to really help me. They always tell me to keep trying or look at the bright side of life

 

[GeorgeJL]

Yes I told my friends and family that I plan on ending my life, hopefully when I'm an old man. They actually don't know what to say.

 

[Allpainnogain]

I have only told a few online friends and psychologists. I've read too much negativity about people telling their 'friends', so I won't do that. Though i don't have much of a choice - after isolating myself for so long I've got no friends left. People will only think of me again when they hear I'm dead, but it won't matter at all.

What is your method?

 

[21Neberg]

What is your method?

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