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Ever experienced true love?

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katofumiko45

katofumiko45

why me
Sep 20, 2025
16
Well im most likely gonna die without having experienced this prolonged state of elation known as "love", how about you?
 
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Kobusu

Kobusu

Writer
Oct 18, 2021
286
I don't think I would let myself die without experiencing love, especially having experienced it. I think you should find someone, or even something, to really and truly love with all of yourself, completely selflessly and selfishly.
 
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itsgone2

-
Sep 21, 2025
1,665
Yes, and I lost it. So many mistakes in life. I hope you find someone.
 
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alliecake

Member
Oct 23, 2023
24
No, I've never even kissed someone. This is one of my main reasons for CTB!
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
11,257
Yes....
Sometimes it was one sided which sucked. I don't try anymore
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,516
Never romantic love. But my late best friend was the other half of my soul. The 20th will be 13 years since he died.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,833
No. There was one I said I loved, but not really. That relationship was hellish. Probably closer to it with the regular booty call later on.
 
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Archness

Archness

Defective Personel
Jan 20, 2023
584
No. Closest thing I think was around middle school until I outright ran away to not confront just a small amount of this depression and darkness I'm always in now. Sometimes I wonder if things would've ended up differently if I wasn't such a coward but tbh it would've definitely crashed and burned since it was mostly built off of emotional desperation and naivete.

Sadly, it's never gonna get any better then that because I'm outright defective and unwanted for real love.
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
I dont believe in it
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,769
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User111885

I request my username and all posts be deleted.
Jun 22, 2025
555
i felt like i was in love for a week or two, but the other person ended up not feeling the same way, then dated many other people in the months after, so clearly the strong feelings were one-sided

so... no
 
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Bitch With An Apple

"Student"
Jul 10, 2019
271
I loved someone pretty intensely and he loved me too but truth is the last word I'd use to describe it
 
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LigottiIsRight

LigottiIsRight

Life is not worth beginning.
Jan 28, 2025
209
I'm not sure what OP means by 'true love', but I answered No, because all I've ever had are a handful of one-sided crushes. A few people have liked me, but it hasn't been mutual, and I've never been in a relationship. In any case, I lost all interest in romantic relationships more than ten years ago.
I have no interest in love, so when I have a crush, I don't pay much attention to it (I recognize that it's only a fixation of attention that I can't control, and with time it will pass).
 
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getoutgirl

getoutgirl

got out the site <3
Mar 17, 2025
558
Nope. Just love I had to make a clean break from before causing them true pain.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,370
no, my ex-boyfriends treated me like trash
 
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wilderwein

Member
Aug 20, 2025
24
Yes. I believe that real love can be once. But I really started to appreciate it when everything started to fall apart because of me. Now I know that when you truly love , life without this person is so painful, worse than hell, that takes away your strength and desire to exist.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,351
I've felt love towards friends and family but, I assume you mean romantic love here.

But, not reciprocated- no. I think what I experienced was limerence too. I'm not sure how that compares to love. I thought it was love at the time because it was so intense.
 
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wolfpaxhd

wolfpaxhd

Student
Aug 30, 2025
128
No and unfortunately i don't think i ever will..
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,344
I would never want anything they say is so good, needed, important , meaningful especially not the "love" or romantic relationship.

when i think about it logically , even if i didn't have all these horrible problems beyond imagination i stil wouldn't want anything.

why do i have to find love, or get into a romantic relationship or get a gf? i don't . there is no objective reason to do that or anything.

the mind is everything what you think you become

I don't need nor want any kind of relationship with any human
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,824
Yes. I believe that real love can be once. But I really started to appreciate it when everything started to fall apart because of me. Now I know that when you truly love , life without this person is so painful, worse than hell, that takes away your strength and desire to exist.
Exactly this. It can kill you too, when it goes wrong.
 
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broken serenity

broken serenity

Member
Sep 26, 2025
94
I feel like it's different with everyone in regards to how much of it feels transactional vs real? I honestly am not sure after all these years. Feels more like a delusional state of mind than when I'm single. Plus so much more emotionally safe here in me-world. I wish I was the type of person who could be happy in love forever. A special other half sounds cute in a toxic way.
 
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closetoyou

closetoyou

Member
Aug 19, 2025
81
nope!
 
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SunnySideSummer

SunnySideSummer

Member
Oct 2, 2025
19
I don't think I would let myself die without experiencing love, especially having experienced it. I think you should find someone, or even something, to really and truly love with all of yourself, completely selflessly and selfishly.
I think the same

I never knew love and its one of the reason i think I should end my life but i want to try just once even if i already wasted my adolescence and youth
 
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MissAbyss

Member
Jul 20, 2025
585
In context with a romantic partner? No.
 
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elenaboo25

Student
Oct 19, 2025
156
I have had true love twice, right now I am on the end of the 2nd time, and both times have left me even more broken than before. The first time was about a year ago. He broke up with me after about 2 months. Now with the 2nd one I am about 2 months in as well, but it can't go on, as he is emotionally abusive. I have been feeling like I want to die all weekend because of him. I cannot break up with him but I also cannot continue the relationship. I feel I need to end my life now much sooner than planned because I can't live without him anymore but I also can't in good conscience continue that relationship and potentially move in with him some day if he is already behaving like this now that we live quite far apart.
 
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kissmegoodbye

kissmegoodbye

tomboyish girl who wants to be a princess!
Jun 15, 2024
42
i currently am with the love of my life.. i really was lucky because when we first met i was planning to ctb about a week after and i changed my mind because of him. unfortunately though even though he's so good to me and really makes me happy, my life really is good, my issues didnt just disappear.. i still have suicidal thoughts, ive self harmed and still have emotional breakdowns and all that stuff,, it makes me feel guilty, he does everything he can for me and im still like this... it makes me scared im going to lose him one day. im pretty self aware and notice how i actively look out for reasons for him to hate me/leave me and i make him upset sometimes with how much i worry : ( i know he gets upset out of love because he doesn't want me to be sad,, but its understandable too to get upset having to repeat the same affirmations that hes not gonna leave me over and over to me T.T
 
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d4isy

d4isy

worthless
May 30, 2023
250
nope and i know i never will because i'm ugly. it's one of the main reasons why i wanna ctb.
 
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Mr. Snrub

Mr. Snrub

Specialist
Aug 10, 2025
318
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,174
I don't know what love is. Unknown thing. 43yo, still virgin, no real friends. And mental + physical illnesses (disability). Not surprising I'm here...
Cute cat 🥰 My cat does it too with her head. My previous cat (deceased now) was tricolor too
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Paragon
Mar 15, 2025
971
No such thing. It's better to just accept what is plainly obvious. It doesn't exist.
 
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