I take a drug (lamictal) in order to not have too many depressive thoughts, but nobody ever diasogned me with something, and not only one but 2 psychiatric and 1 therapist. The 2 doctors basically told me, you don't need real antidepressant because you really have concrete problems, so it's normal that you feel that way, even if you took antidepressant you would still have thes external problems. And it's true, i could take all the drugs of this world, it wouldn't change the fact that i have an abusive family, physical problems, no friends etc Maybe i could have taken them years ago now it's too late
So basically even doctors told me i cant help you, you have a very shitty life its normal you are depressed just accept it or CTB (they didnt stay this last sentence obviously)