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domedune

domedune

the stars will aid my escape
Dec 18, 2019
268
I know it seems unfathomable right now but it would be safer to wait. I don't mean waiting for your condition to get better. I mean waiting for a safe time window. Waiting will be hard but remember what you risk if you run out of time.

That aside, I feel for you and I hope you achieve peace. Just, try to ground yourself before you do this. :heart:
 
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Rae82

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Jun 4, 2021
119
I know it seems unfathomable right now but it would be safer to wait. I don't mean waiting for your condition to get better. I mean waiting for a safe time window. Waiting will be hard but remember what you risk if you run out of time.

That aside, I feel for you and I hope you achieve peace. Just, try to ground yourself before you do this. :heart:
Thank you. I'm not sure I can wait but I'm not sure I can go through with it. I'm still waiting on my domperidone to be delivered so if that comes too late I won't be able to do it anyway.
I've taken some diazepam.
Post lady still hasn't been yet. I think realistically if I'm going for 45 mins between domperidone and SN I need to have taken the domperidone by 1.45pm at the latest.
I have pictures of me and my daughter in the room. I've covered the bed in towels and have a play list of songs. I want to hug one of my daughters comforters that smells of her but then she won't be able to use it anymore and that might upset her so not sure what to do.
 
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logan

Warlock
May 20, 2021
705
This is really sad to read ...
I hope you can still get over yourself and have the strength to fight a little longer.
 
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Rae82

Student
Jun 4, 2021
119
Feeling very spaced out from the diazepam and propranolol.
Domperidone went in about 2.
 
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hʚll

hʚll

not real.
Jun 18, 2021
467
hey just want to say we are virtually here with you no matter what you choose to do
 
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Rae82

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Jun 4, 2021
119
hey just want to say we are virtually here with you no matter what you choose to do
Thank you!! I think I'm 70/30 going to do it. I just hope I don't gag and bring it up straight away.
 
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hʚll

not real.
Jun 18, 2021
467
Thank you!! I think I'm 70/30 going to do it. I just hope I don't gag and bring it up straight away.
do you feel less anxious having taken the diazepam and propanolol?

in theory if you keep it down for about 10 min,enough sn should have been absorbed. but yeah. it's better to have another dose next to you.
 
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Rae82

Student
Jun 4, 2021
119
Yes I do. I've also mixed some into the first drink.
I'm going to wait 5 more mins for the domp to work although I fully expect vomiting
I have a second dose too
 
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fly away

It’s enough
Oct 28, 2020
110
Wishing you love and peace with whatever decision you make :heart:
 
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Rae82

Student
Jun 4, 2021
119
I've drunk it
It's burning my throat
Feeling hot
Starting to feel sick
That's only 4 minutes so far
 
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hʚll

hʚll

not real.
Jun 18, 2021
467
i'm sorry you have to suffer this. i hope you will soon lose consciousness so you don't feel pain anymore..

i wish you peace♡
 
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aminend

Warlock
May 24, 2020
746
Still with us? I Hope u find ur peace. I feel ur pain. I hope ur journey be peaceful totally
 
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Drimacus

Student
Jun 9, 2021
134
Wish you luck and peace.
 
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fly away

It’s enough
Oct 28, 2020
110
Hope you are at peace.
 
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Sslsh

Experienced
Jan 29, 2020
293
hope you find peace
 
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The Lonely

The Lonely

Arcanist
Jan 26, 2021
406
Hey! If you are still with us and did not make it…

it's all right… and you can chat with us again in order to manage a good way to fix things properly… whit no rush…. Ok?

I wish you the best!
 
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logan

Warlock
May 20, 2021
705
Hey! If you are still with us and did not make it…

it's all right… and you can chat with us again in order to manage a good way to fix things properly… whit no rush…. Ok?

I wish you the best!
She wrote that she drank it. And since she was already in such a bad way, I think that unfortunately that was it.
 
Stroopwafel.

Stroopwafel.

Meow
Jan 14, 2020
109
I hope you found peace :heart:
 
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SufferingInSilence

Member
Dec 9, 2020
6
We lost another one to this cruel world.

May you rest in peace, Rae. May you rest in peace.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,520
This life really is cruel, I'm sorry that you have been pushed to do this and you have experienced so much suffering. When things get unbearable, it is impossible to stay on this earth. If you are gone, I hope you are at peace now and you are free from pain.
 
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At_The_End

Member
Jun 7, 2021
34
God speed. RIP and your suffering is now over....
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,473
rest in peace
 
BornBrief

BornBrief

Student
Dec 21, 2020
143
Oh my... Missed this thread... :aw: so sad.
 
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unperson

unperson

nontitle
May 8, 2021
120
Oh my... Missed this thread... :aw: so sad.
Me as well, would have liked to express empathizing with her struggles. It was so sad the way she had to suffer.
 
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xrafinha

Member
Mar 29, 2021
87
She made it look easy to overcome s.i.
I guess that is what it takes, an unbearable condition. RIP
 
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xkonstantinexx

Member
Jun 11, 2021
78
I hope she found the peace that she was seeking.. Rest in peace
 
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JoeFailure

Mage
Apr 29, 2019
592
I really hope she got what she wanted and the suffering is over. I feel so terrible for her, she had a daughter she loved so much. I would've given my life so she could have stayed. Unfortunately reality sucks.
 
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Efilismislife

Efilismislife

Psychopath family tortured me
May 25, 2021
642
I sent her pm asking about empty nose syndrome. Ive known about it years ago since i also have nose issues.
It baffled me why doctor cant figure that out. Though i know some doctors suck

i didnt know that she drank it. And dont know if shes still alive or not... :shy:
 

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