Have any of the people around you kill themselves

[hamermaster8]

I had a friend who did it by od if I am unable to stab myself then would like to od.

 

[The Burning Fool]

One of my distant relatives was allegedly murdered by some mobsters when I was a child, but I've always found that story incredibly sketchy and unrealistic. I kept asking my mom about it, but I got very vague answers or none at all. No one has even been charged or prosecuted or whatever. Now I'm almost sure he just ctb by hanging, and no one wanted to tell ten year old me the true story. So, my answer is a definite maybe.

 

[Amelie]

A childhood friend I grew up with ctb a few years ago. My mum always talks about it and says the girl's mum is at fault/ drove her to it etc. And I just end up thinking my mum should take a look in the mirror.

 

[avoid]

A boy in the same grade, different class, at my high school ctb some time ago. I remember the day that our class' mentor shared this news. Everyone was silent when we heard the news—a few girls started to tear a little. After class, a lot of rumors started to spread about possible reasons why he ctb, one of which was that he was bullied a lot. I didn't know him and never really talked with him. But the more I thought about the rumors, the more it started to sink in how he must've felt in the time leading up to his end.

The only moments that I noticed him were during the lunch breaks. My friends and I always stood in the same spot during the breaks in the halls. We had some neighboring friend groups with which we mingled from time to time, but more often not. I remember seeing the boy standing with one of our neighboring friend groups every once in a while. In rare moments, he walked over to us to stand with us. But as far as I noticed, nobody really involved him in the conversations and neither did I. He was just near us. I never really thought anything of him other than that I didn't understand what he was doing/standing with us. Only after he ctb, I realized that he probably tried to connect with us. This I don't know for sure but it sounds logical to me when hearing all the rumors about what happened at the time. Sometimes I thought, what if we had befriended him and made him part of our school group. But those thoughts are a little too late because what happened happened already.

School held a memorial in the church with everyone from our grade where I learned more about him. It was clear that nobody said to have known who bullied him; that nobody expected him to ctb; and that he played the piano beautifully in the video shown at his memorial.

 

[sserafim]

Yeah 1 person from my high school and 2 people from my college did

 

[garota suicida]

duas pessoas com quem já me relacionei pegaram o ônibus por enforcamento, ambos por amores não correspondidos

 

[jessisme]

It's possible that my cousin did. We don't know if the overdose he died from was accidental or on purpose but he had been troubled for quite some time.

 

[strawb12]

I knew a few people online, some on this forum, that I was friends with that have ctbd. But no one irl, although I have a few suicidal friends, we've even seriously talked about doing a double suicide if the right opportunity came up.

 

[Rational man]

Ive known many people who ctb, age range 21 to 60. Two people had physical disease and couldnt cope with the uncertainty and treatment. A couple of old school kids I knew ctb when they were 21. I knew of 4 work colleagues who ctb over several Years. So maybe about 10 in total ctb who I knew. My father attempted ctb and my grandad gassed himself .... LIfe is short, its fragile and the uncertainty and suffering is part of everyone's life in one way or another. We get one shot at life and thats it.

 

[sserafim]

Yeah 1 person from my high school and 2 people from my college did

A 3rd person from my college died as well but idk if they killed themself or not…

I had a friend who did it by od if I am unable to stab myself then would like to od.

Yeah, I think OD would be a good way to go but sadly I don't have any (viable) drugs…

 

[CH349]

Many that wishes to, but dosent plan to.

I feel kind of ashamed, I don't want to start a domino effect where my friends wants to join me and then their friends wants to join them. Oh god

 

[Ligand]

One of my middle-aged uncles shot himself in the head. He had pretty severe Bipolar Disorder, a couple physical illnesses and was on marriage 3 or 4. He wasn't a bad person, and a ton of people showed up to his funeral. He had been suicidal during manic depressive episodes for like 20 years - so while it was very surprising when it happened, pretty much everyone understood why he did it. That being said, I do believe it was a slightly impulsive suicide based on where and when he did it. Although I do think there's a very good chance he would have done it eventually anyway.

 

[ae300]

some

 

[backtoearth]

One of my close friends last year, I don't know how it happened but he wasn't found for 3 days when social work had a check-up. I still feel guilty that I wasn't there for him then, there are many reasons but the thought that he was completely alone and no-one even noticed his passing makes me feel sick to my stomach. He was in a lot of mental pain and had been through so much horrific suffering but still had achieved so much in his life and brought so much joy and laughter wherever he went. I think about him a lot and I just hope he is at peace now and was able to feel in some way the outpouring of love when we all found out what happened, and has been reunited with his mum who he was finding it so hard to live without

 

[warriorkot]

I had a friend who did it by od if I am unable to stab myself then would like to od.

my uncle did. when i was 9. i remember when i was told he died and everyone was in a room upset, i asked "can we still go out for lunch?"

 

[damienlerone03]

the entire house next to mine was found dead one day, the dad was found hanging in the garage and the wife and 2 kids (both around 8) were found with stab wounds, according to the police it was a murder suicide. The dad and mom were arguing one night, the dad killed the mom then went to kill the kids too. He couldn't handle the guilt and then hanged himself. One of my friend's dad found the bodies after coming to check on the family since they weren't responding to phone calls and the kids didn't go to school the next day. He's still traumatized. I still think about them all the time because they always looked like such a happy family. I have window next to my study desk and i used to see the 2 kids playing badminton with their dad all the time on the road having so much fun. This may be a coincidence, but the night of the murder suicide, it was the mom's birthday.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Had a 3rd cousin by marriage kill themselves with partial. When I was in my teens, a kid a few years older than me, who lived across the street from my mom's house, blew his brains out with his dad's gun. My neighbor across the street blew his brains out. A guy I worked with killed himself by some method I don't remember anymore, after getting a devastating diagnosis for something, I think cancer of some sort. And my dad's sister *could* be considered suicide because, after burying her only 2 children in the same year, and ending up in a nursing home because there was just no one to care for her, she just gave up, stopped eating, refused any medications, and died.

 

[Nothing87]

I have a distant relative who ctb by hanging, and I don't personally knew him but I hope he found peace and may his soul rest in eternal paradise where there is no suffering and pain.

 

[lacrimosa]

My friend C killed himself when I was 19. My friend A died of a heart attack, K died of an overdose, T died of an overdose, A died of an overdose, and my friend R died from an overdose...

 

[Apathy79]

My best friend ctb. That's what brought me here. Looking for his posts because he'd mentioned the site to his mother. Never found them - 99% sure he just lurked and never posted. He'd told me about a previous attempt years earlier and we spent all night discussing it. Then never spoke of it again. He was an interesting case - on paper had it all - money, wife, kids, decent job, decent parents/siblings, physical health. Mentally deeply hated himself since he was a kid for reasons I could never figure out. I remember once winning a video game against him and him beating his head against the wall until it bled because of it. That was when he was like 8. Never went away and ultimately overrode everything else.

 

[Daxter777]

My dad did. I didn't know him well saw him maybe once in 3 years. Last time i saw him he was overly skiny and sickly looking. Something happened that tipped him over the edge but im not sure what i suspect his wife kicking him out could have been the reason. He would still live on the farm in a separate house. He ended up getting drunk and drinking a fuck ton of blood pressure pills. He slipped in to a chome then died 3 days after ingesting.

My cousin on my fathers side ctb with carbon manoxide. The old hose pipe in the exhaust method. It was somewhere in the 90s that she did it. I don't ever recall interacting with her so i can't really say i knew her. I was very small when she CTB

 

[Hunter2005]

Idk anyone close to me who did it but I feel I may be the first in my family to do it unfortunately.