Venting Best friend doesn’t want to ctb with me

[mordumfan]

I wish i had someone to CTB with. I am too nervous to travel and I'm very worried about my appearance. Killing myself with someone peacefully would be amazing. I can just imagine holding them as our lives fade slowly.

My best friend has previously been very suicidal, often I imagined me and my her killing ourselves together. However it seems she is still depressed but not willing to kill herself. I can't say I'm happy for her, as she's still depressed. But if that's her choice then I respect it obviously.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Have you made a post yet on the partners megathread? That's what it's there for.

 

[mordumfan]

Have you made a post yet on the partners megathread? That's what it's there for.

Not yet, I am still a little nervous but I am thinking of it.

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

I wish. Going out with someone would be great… A friend of mine got renewed concern for me when I brought it up, even though she too has talked about suicide before. I'll probably end up going over to her house that night, leaving then ctbing. I hate being alone… Love and peace, mate

 

[void-infinity]

that's the dream. i think committing a double-suicide is the most intimate thing you can do with someone. it's fucking devastating having that as your dream but being shy & afraid of intimacy at the same time…. all we can do is dream until we fall into an eternal sleep.