Venting Ctb in 5 minutes

[imsorryspike]

First of all the site has been down all day for me and I just was able to get on, idk if anyone else had that happen but that was crazy

Anyway I'm going to attempt to ctb in about 5 minutes, I will be taking 4.5g of diphenhydramine, I'm kinda nervou. What if it doesnt work? What if it does work? Idk there's a lot of thoughts going through my mind and I'm 95% sure my best friend knows I'm gonna kms cuz I tried to give him the spider-man action figure I carry everywhere with me and he refused to take it and told me not to kill myself so yeah. Also when I got home I saw my moms phone and he texted her, I couldn't read the text but my mom came in my room twice already to check on me. I know people say it's hard to OD on dph but I'm still going to try.

In case this does work good bye everybody, thank you for giving me a community here and I love you all

 

[Stargate]

I'm sorry life brought you to this point. Hope you find peace and wish you well in whatever comes next!

 

[liverviper]

I think I caught this early, don't know if it's early enough. I'm hoping for the best for you, whatever it may be.

 

[houseofleaves]

my best friend knows I'm gonna kms cuz I tried to give him the spider-man action figure I carry everywhere with me and he refused to take it and told me not to kill myself so yeah. Also when I got home I saw my moms phone and he texted her, I couldn't read the text but my mom came in my room twice already to check on me. I know people say it's hard to OD on dph but I'm still going to try.

I'm sorry for saying this, but maybe today is not the right day for CTB? I mean, if other people know about your plans and are checking up on you...

 

[EternalShore]

yeahhh~ :( the site being down all day rather sucked ngl~ >_< anyways, see ya, imsorryspike~ I wish you the best and will pray for you~ :) I'm sorry for whatever has brought you to this despair~ :(

 

[darksouls]

good luck, I hope you find the peace you desire

 

[waaaheaven]

i hope you found peace