Cyaneed
Member
- Jul 9, 2026
- 59
As some of you know, I had a DNR put in my core health record. It applies to both pre-hospital treatment and hospital treatment where there is no prospect of recovery. (I'm using Google translate here, as I struggle with the translation) Anyway, my partner had a fit of rage and broke some stuff when they saw it in my papers, because my GP had written that the DNR applies to both CTB and acute illness/injury.
I do understand that my partner is angry, but in the end, it's my life, my body and my death. I have planned to CTB during the winter if everything goes according to plan. I really just feel like I am a kind of a shell of a person walking around without really having any kind of quality of life. The health care system has long given up on me, and I have given up on myself too. When I tried to break up with my partner, they said if I broke up with them they would shoot themselves in the head. It's all so complicated. It feels like I'm killing two people.
I do understand that my partner is angry, but in the end, it's my life, my body and my death. I have planned to CTB during the winter if everything goes according to plan. I really just feel like I am a kind of a shell of a person walking around without really having any kind of quality of life. The health care system has long given up on me, and I have given up on myself too. When I tried to break up with my partner, they said if I broke up with them they would shoot themselves in the head. It's all so complicated. It feels like I'm killing two people.
