Venting Hating human being

[Ultimatefighter]

Does anyone here has hated others already all there lives, hate existence and don't want to be part of this shit.

Because of all betrayal, bullying and just in general humans who lie all the times can't stand most of them.

I get this extreme rage inside me all the time what could lead to bad things it's so hard to keep it inside me.

Anyone else can relate?

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I can relate so much. I have this very deep hatred and anger inside me that burns like fire some days. I try to keep it contained but some days I just can't and I end up punching doors. The door to my bedroom has holes and cracks all over it from all the times I've punched it. I don't get physically violent with other people, even though I quite often want to.

Probably the people I hate the most would be the loan department at the bank I used to go to that sued me over it. They kicked me when I was down and struggling and I will never forgive them for it, or for closing my checking account so I had to find a different bank.

 

[FF777]

i hate this planet.. it's planet of the apes.. the competency crisis is real, where no one can do any thing.. all companies and governments are run by complete morons that have no idea what they are doing and it drives me crazy..

and yeah individual humans like to play games...... they lie or pout or deceive you or just a lot of things i really don't have time for..

 

[korchoi]

If life is painful, anyone would have such thoughts. Those who aren't in pain criticize you; they accuse you of harboring antisocial thoughts. Yet, if they were suffering too, they would curse others just the same.

 

[Ultimatefighter]

I would like to add to my thoughts, it is not something that i like about myself. I hate this feeling so strong intense hate it destroys me. I don't want to hate the world but it just feels so intense. I worry i can not keep the beast inside forever and do something destroying someone else life and my own. I do not want this..

I can relate so much. I have this very deep hatred and anger inside me that burns like fire some days. I try to keep it contained but some days I just can't and I end up punching doors. The door to my bedroom has holes and cracks all over it from all the times I've punched it. I don't get physically violent with other people, even though I quite often want to.

Probably the people I hate the most would be the loan department at the bank I used to go to that sued me over it. They kicked me when I was down and struggling and I will never forgive them for it, or for closing my checking account so I had to find a different bank.

sorry to hear your struggling to do you think it has to do with being able to control emotions? Eventhough it is a rational body response

 

[dragonofenvy]

The envy I feel towards humanity is unbearable. I did not do anything to deserve this misery and yet here I am. I do not understand how the people who aren't in such pain can tell me that I am the one who built this life. Why would I intentionally cause myself such pain?

I am trapped. It is like the story I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream. I am trapped in this existence while the rest of humanity (who would be AM) continue to enforce suffering. Unlike AM I do not think they do it out of malevolence, but rather, ignorance. Or perhaps, the prevention of suicide is out of selfishness. I do not know. All I know that I wish for the misery to end, and yet I still cling to life for some unknowable reason.

 

[ConstantPain]

When I lived near family we were much closer. I moved 10 1/2 years ago and now we barely keep in touch. None of them could possibly claim me dying was any big deal to them.
I feel rage inside me once in awhile and I prefer it to the otherwise constant can't give a sh--t about anything feeling.
I used to think I could help this world become a better place or that at least I could help someone else through it. The last 10 years have made me fully realize there is no help for a world that's hell bent on going back in time. I see more injustice now than ever in my almost 50 years of life. Just watching the news is sometimes unbearable. Rage, disgust, disdain, depression, they're all natural reactions to this existence.