hate having anxiety over ctb

[wildflowers1996]

It's not that I'm uncertain about wanting to die - I do - but when I think about actually taking the overdose I'm filled with so much fear. I wish I was able to feel calm about it

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just the unfortunate reality that suicide isn't straightforward, the problem is how the human body is programmed to survive even if one is fully aware that they wish to cease existing. It really shouldn't be so difficult to die.

 

[wildflowers1996]

It's just the unfortunate reality that suicide isn't straightforward, the problem is how the human body is programmed to survive even if one is fully aware that they wish to cease existing. It really shouldn't be so difficult to die.

it's so hard I'm already a highly anxious person anyway and I keep having panic attacks at the thought of ctb I think if I have a lot of tranquillisers that might help but I am honestly terrified - I do want to die, I just wish it wasn't so terrifying, i wish someone would kill me in my sleep so I wouldn't have to know anything about it
I'm sorry you're suffering so much too