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PeacefulTonic

Enlightened
Aug 10, 2021
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I've betrayed someone who loved me with everything they got. I know they are devastated, and completely crushed. I hate myself for everything I've done that lead to this point in my life. I wish I could go back in time and get a re-do
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
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Yes and this is the reason why I am here
 
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lostmyhope86

Member
Sep 14, 2021
33
i have already told my experience with my wife in another topic. i also write it here

One day i discover she chat with some man in tiktok, 14 years younger than her, in a romantic way. i don't know if she already meet him or not. i just discover the chat. so i get angry and when i try to ask explication and say that i want divorce i obtain no reaction from her. For one week i sleep in another room

after 1 week, we fighting. i ask her explication, and i slap her 3 times. in the morning, when i sleep she run away.
After one more week she go to the police and she accuse me of many things fake, like i rape her 2 times on the marriage, i slap her many times i use her like a slave ecc ecc. She also show fake photo of last day, were she appear very red in face and neck and she say i try to kill her and strangulate. I just lucky i was acces to her google photos and i have the real photo.
She do that because she need a way for stay here in switzerland with visa, because if ask divorce she lose everything. But now, she can't lose visa anymore thanks to this bullshit. so somebody explain her how to do

At this moment she live with this boy, and i risk to go in jail.

i lose my job, because i make 15days of temporary prison until the investigation was finish.
When i try to contact her she never answer to me.

at the end of this story i will lose more than 30.000 euro, and risk of jail time

I'm in shock for too many reason. Our relationship was perfect. We never fought, we had sex 2 times at day, we was happy.
But one day i woke up and found out i was married to a monster.
I already knew she was a psycopath because of her relationship with her family, daughter and ex husband. But i never imagined it would go so far as to do this to me
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
The love of my life. I spent a sizable fortune saving her from despair Anyway we're on our way to getting married and having children as she begged me to. And so I trusted her unconditionally. Now she's gone and my life has been devastated. Which is why I'm here in this forum planning the end.
 
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Ego Sum Medusa

I am the Crone.
Sep 28, 2021
162
Yes. But I still love him. That's why ctb seems like the only way for me to move on.
Yeah, me too; I still love him, even though he's not the man I thought he was. We were close, close friends for five years (LD he's in the UK) and romantic partners (I'm polyamorous) for six months. He was a completley different person then. When we were friends, he doted on me, adored me; it was obvious he loved me and actually said mutliple times he would love to be in my Long Distance Boyfriend's place. Then he was and he turned into a self-centered, insensitive, narcissist Ass Hat I didn't recognize.

Now, there are other huge, life-changing painful things happening in my life and I want so much to call him and say, "Can we deal with this mess later? I need you now." But I can't because the man I knew is gone. He isn't there to call.

I hope he steps on a Lego.

Anyway, sorry for the rant. I feel your pain, is what I'm saying. ♥
i have already told my experience with my wife in another topic. i also write it here

One day i discover she chat with some man in tiktok, 14 years younger than her, in a romantic way. i don't know if she already meet him or not. i just discover the chat. so i get angry and when i try to ask explication and say that i want divorce i obtain no reaction from her. For one week i sleep in another room

after 1 week, we fighting. i ask her explication, and i slap her 3 times. in the morning, when i sleep she run away.
After one more week she go to the police and she accuse me of many things fake, like i rape her 2 times on the marriage, i slap her many times i use her like a slave ecc ecc. She also show fake photo of last day, were she appear very red in face and neck and she say i try to kill her and strangulate. I just lucky i was acces to her google photos and i have the real photo.
She do that because she need a way for stay here in switzerland with visa, because if ask divorce she lose everything. But now, she can't lose visa anymore thanks to this bullshit. so somebody explain her how to do

At this moment she live with this boy, and i risk to go in jail.

i lose my job, because i make 15days of temporary prison until the investigation was finish.
When i try to contact her she never answer to me.

at the end of this story i will lose more than 30.000 euro, and risk of jail time

I'm in shock for too many reason. Our relationship was perfect. We never fought, we had sex 2 times at day, we was happy.
But one day i woke up and found out i was married to a monster.
I already knew she was a psycopath because of her relationship with her family, daughter and ex husband. But i never imagined it would go so far as to do this to me
Did you say you slapped her three times? Did I get that right?
 
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Kobusu

Writer
Oct 18, 2021
268
Yeah, I think we all have. I gave my everything to the woman that was my whole reason for living these last three years, and I was discarded as soon as more options came along. As soon as there was someone better. She happily kept my friends, though, and I know (through one or two really loyal friends) that she tells them all manner of horrid things about me that aren't even necessarily true. She's got BPD, and so I can't even blame her if it's a result of her illness. Then again, maybe she's always been like this.

So, here I am. I should count myself lucky, finally having nothing constraining me to life anymore. Nobody who has my forever. I think this was always inevitable, so I'm thankful it's happened in such a way that the fewest people possible are hurt. I will die like a dog for no good reason, with one or two people who still care for me, and I am okay with that. Better than living.
 
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