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- May 11, 2020
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I can relate! It's not weird at all. I often feel guilty when I am happy. Sometimes, it's because I don't believe I deserve to feel happy and that my natural state is depression. At others, it's because the happiness feels like it carries an obligation to build on it and to try to recover (I try to tell myself that guilt is a poor motivator, that an emotion does not oblige anything, that it's OK just to be in this moment and to feel without judgment).Sounds weird but I feel uncomfortable if I ever feel happy so it dosent last long, it's like it's hard wired into me that I can't be happy x
Last time I was truly happy was when I went to see my favorite group at a concert. It was very short though, I still think of that moment. Haven't been happy sinceI don't think I have or ever will?
I couldn't have said it better myself ♡There are moments of true joy in this world. It's just a bloody shame the moments of pain have to overshadow them.
I guess so but never any greater overall satisfaction. In other words, I might have good individual moments but have always hated life overall
I feel happiness all the time when I am doing things that are escapes from reality such as playing games, listening to music, watching shows/movies, etc.
It's when I stop doing those things that I realize the truth and my happiness goes away.